louisthunter

I drove down to Southcoast Plaza (a big shopping mall in Orange County, near where I live) today to check out the Apple store (ipod stuff) and just people watch a little. Being around other people is a quick cure for loneliness but it's like a band-aid on a broken arm. I've been here almost a week and I'm starting to feel really alone. For some reason, I thought I would be okay without friends for awhile but...guess I'm not as antisocial as I had assumed. Bittersweet.

I shaved my facial hair off yesterday (so the picture to the right is, well, wrong now). A good fat guy trick - grow a goatee to hide the double chin. So whenever you see me w/ the beard, it means my self esteem is low and I'm feeling heavy. If I keep doing what I'm doing, I won't feel like I need to hide my face anymore.

The weather in this state is unbelievable. I am really not a cold weather person, so why do I always end up back in Chicago? At least I'm here now.

I miss my girlfriend and her son a lot. Sleep is difficult.