So I have to take the biggest test of my entire life on Monday! I have been in Los Angeles for about four months and I am finally taking my cosmetology licensing exam. I have locked myself in my apartment for about a week and a half studying and practicing on my mannequin. You get about 10 to 20 minutes to do every task from a haircut to creating an acrylic nail. They stand over you like hawks watching and taking off points for every mistake. Your kit has to be basically something you would keep in a biohazard zone, everything has to have its own Ziploc sealed tight with everything labeled with handmade labels. A lot of people don't understand that being a hairdresser is very intense. We also have to take a written exam right after the practical exam, the test consists of questions about every muscle in the body, every bone in the body, every nail fungus, every bodily system, there are questions about electricity and chemistry, their history questions about who made the original curling iron and what time period did people start wearing make up on their lips, we also have to know about every kind of disease. Did you know the hair on your body has different names? The hair that has pigment and is found on the face of a woman or man is called primary hair. However the hair so small and soft without pigment found on arms and such is called vellus hair. Did you know that a wig made half by hand and half by machine is called a postiche? So it's a lot. And I'm terrified. So this post was a bit of a rant because I'm losing my mind and my anxiety is kinda firing away. So if you guys wouldn't mind sending some good vibes my way and just keeping my test on Monday in your good energy pool, that would be so amazing. I need all the anxiety free love I can get :) love you all!! Xoxox
thescottness:
Anxiety is a bitch, but I have faith in you. Every time I get anxious about something I just have to remind myself that feelings aren't facts, and that the voices in my head telling me it's too much or I'm going to fail are just my ego's perverted way of keeping me safe from harm. I just have to keep returning to the process and have faith that by showing up and being present in the moment is the only way to get where I want to go. So I would say define your process for studying, stick to it, and always know that no matter how it turns out after Monday the world will continue to spin, you'll continue to exist, and if that's your goal in life you just have to go back to process and time will take care of the rest. If not Monday then the second time you take the test.
irishrebelndn:
I wish you all the luck in the world on your exam. I have faith in you my Dear friend.