When I get done taking a 200 degree shower late at night, I like to go outside right away and let the cool breeze dry me off. So im sitting there on my towel, naked as all hell, in a chair on my deck smoking a cig, and i look over and notice my neighbor is peeking at me out her patio door. 
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I was driving home today and this song by Stained came on the radio called "so far away". Really hit me pretty hard, so needless to say, when I got home I downloaded it and listened to it all day at work. Some songs say it better than me sometimes.....
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This is my life
It's not what it was before
All these feelings I've...
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This is my life
It's not what it was before
All these feelings I've...
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roxypixie:
I heard that song on the radio yesterday and thought of you.
eponine:
i sent you an email.
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I'm sitting here trying to think of something I have to look forward to within the coming month, other than tiresome bouts between me and the antagonist called depression... Lets see.... I hope to be jumping out of a plane again soon. Woohoo for freefalling. The chute ride is pretty extraordinary too. But damn skydiving is pricey. $198.00 for about fifteen minutes of fun. Meh,...
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ingrid:
So who is this new penpal from Finland you're referring to? 
You're too sweet with your words..
It's nice to hear how much you'd like to travel to Finland.. In which time of the year you think you'd like to visit this place? Would you like to see the light on a summer's midnight, or experience the cold and dark Santa's land in winter? Autumn and spring are really beautiful here as well, the four seasons in here are really different from each other.. I'm not exactly sure where I would take visitors who come from far away lands, but it depends on what the person wants to see of course. I'm always dreaming about traveling and running away as well.. I need to see many places in Asia (especially Japan, which has been my biggest dream since I was 4 or something), and many countries in Europe that I haven't visited yet: Poland, Czech Republic, Italy, France, Hungary... I want to see the whole world..
Yes you can stay on my boat! There are at least 10 members on the crew now, mostly princesses who want to be sailors.
I hope we won't irritate you too much.
We could use a good swordman and fisherman in there. My SG dream boat will be starting its course in mystery seas in a short while, so please join us soon!
I'll e-mail you about the penpal thing, ok!
Hope you're enjoying your day..
Hugs!
You're too sweet with your words..
It's nice to hear how much you'd like to travel to Finland.. In which time of the year you think you'd like to visit this place? Would you like to see the light on a summer's midnight, or experience the cold and dark Santa's land in winter? Autumn and spring are really beautiful here as well, the four seasons in here are really different from each other.. I'm not exactly sure where I would take visitors who come from far away lands, but it depends on what the person wants to see of course. I'm always dreaming about traveling and running away as well.. I need to see many places in Asia (especially Japan, which has been my biggest dream since I was 4 or something), and many countries in Europe that I haven't visited yet: Poland, Czech Republic, Italy, France, Hungary... I want to see the whole world..
Yes you can stay on my boat! There are at least 10 members on the crew now, mostly princesses who want to be sailors.
I hope we won't irritate you too much. We could use a good swordman and fisherman in there. My SG dream boat will be starting its course in mystery seas in a short while, so please join us soon!
I'll e-mail you about the penpal thing, ok!
Hope you're enjoying your day..
Hugs!
vastad:
Oh wow....to read your Journal is like going down memory lane.
Happiness comes when you don't give a shit what people think of you. I'm looking for that too. I think I'm doing well in my progress. Nowadays I react to lame people not with a slump, a sigh and a 'poor me' but with self-propping anger...'you don't know me! you can't say that! you have no fucking idea how cool I really am! I don't need to stick around here and waste my time with you!'
....and I just ignore them and hang out with people that rock.
Hey, I'm sorry I took so long to answer. And thank you, really, really, really thank you for the little dedication you put up for my friend. She's going to get it soon.
It's very sweet and it's more than anyone could ask for or expect.
Your doing that Zen archery stuff with the Daikyu right? What was the art called again...?
Happiness comes when you don't give a shit what people think of you. I'm looking for that too. I think I'm doing well in my progress. Nowadays I react to lame people not with a slump, a sigh and a 'poor me' but with self-propping anger...'you don't know me! you can't say that! you have no fucking idea how cool I really am! I don't need to stick around here and waste my time with you!'
....and I just ignore them and hang out with people that rock.
Hey, I'm sorry I took so long to answer. And thank you, really, really, really thank you for the little dedication you put up for my friend. She's going to get it soon.
It's very sweet and it's more than anyone could ask for or expect.
Your doing that Zen archery stuff with the Daikyu right? What was the art called again...?
grawrrrr. CANT SLEEP. 
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blasfemme:
i never have that problem, quite the opposite actually.
i am bordeline narcoleptic.
tornado sirens are going off, it's eerie out, the stillness is a tell-tale sign of that reality. i grew up in oklahoma tho so this is nothing for me.
thanks for your sweet journal entry LO
hope you get some sleep
i am bordeline narcoleptic.
tornado sirens are going off, it's eerie out, the stillness is a tell-tale sign of that reality. i grew up in oklahoma tho so this is nothing for me.
thanks for your sweet journal entry LO
hope you get some sleep
ingrid:
Oh no, don't tell me you're an insomniac as well.
I hope you eventually got some sleep last night.. It's about bedtime in here again already.
Ooohh, I would love to have a real quill and ink well for letter-writing as well.. I only have a couple of re-fill ink pens.. And calligraphy pens. I bet your letters are lovely. Yesyes, it would be great to be penpals. I'm sorry to hear that the girl you know from here only writes about school.. I know a few people of that type as well, and it sometimes feels a bit sad that they don't seem to have anything else in their mind.:/
I'm from the west coast of Finland.. The part where people are the most suspicious, prejudiced and jealous.
But don't worry, I'm not like that (or at least I like to believe that I'm not!) and when you visit Finland, I'll surely be your guide and take you to all the fun and beautiful places.. Maybe I can take away a little bit of your nightmares by saying this: It would be VERY hard to get lost in Finland. There's so few towns and cities in here, and the public transportation system is pretty simple. Of course there are the big big forests.. And in fact I sometimes wonder when I will get lost in a forest for the first time in my life.. But it's really mellow in here, you don't have to worry about basically anything, except maybe the people who might seem like they didn't notice you, which is only because most of us are really shy, or just taught not to talk to strangers... So, when will you be traveling here?
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I hope you eventually got some sleep last night.. It's about bedtime in here again already.
Ooohh, I would love to have a real quill and ink well for letter-writing as well.. I only have a couple of re-fill ink pens.. And calligraphy pens. I bet your letters are lovely. Yesyes, it would be great to be penpals.
I'm sorry to hear that the girl you know from here only writes about school.. I know a few people of that type as well, and it sometimes feels a bit sad that they don't seem to have anything else in their mind.:/
I'm from the west coast of Finland.. The part where people are the most suspicious, prejudiced and jealous.
But don't worry, I'm not like that (or at least I like to believe that I'm not!) and when you visit Finland, I'll surely be your guide and take you to all the fun and beautiful places.. Maybe I can take away a little bit of your nightmares by saying this: It would be VERY hard to get lost in Finland. There's so few towns and cities in here, and the public transportation system is pretty simple. Of course there are the big big forests.. And in fact I sometimes wonder when I will get lost in a forest for the first time in my life.. But it's really mellow in here, you don't have to worry about basically anything, except maybe the people who might seem like they didn't notice you, which is only because most of us are really shy, or just taught not to talk to strangers... So, when will you be traveling here? [Edited on Jun 25, 2003]
There is by far too much immaturity in this world. I myself am no exception at times. However; there are some who have ascended to the difinitive apex of it. Man, if some people can call themeselves human beings, I'm almost ashamed to call myself one.
*Phobus Systems*
------Creating a better future for a select few-------
*Phobus Systems*
------Creating a better future for a select few-------
hyenahell:
...yeah. but. we're all just animals, when it comes down to the bone, man. people kid themselves. they have this delusion of superiority. but i can tell ya one thing. i've met very few dogs whose company i didn't prefer over the majority of people i've met. that's just me, though.
god im a complete fuck up. whatever i touch turns to SHIT.....fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
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silvermchic:
thats how i feel
nimhly:
but at least you didn't delete your photoshop in the middle of some important projects. sigh. i'd love it if you sent me a long a copy.
wassa matta baby? i hae the solution. you could work for a farmer fertilizing his fields if everything you touch turns to shit. did that make you smile atall?
did it did it?
no?
damn. sigh. *hug
wassa matta baby? i hae the solution. you could work for a farmer fertilizing his fields if everything you touch turns to shit. did that make you smile atall?
did it did it?
no?
damn. sigh. *hug
okay, so who wants to go on a date with me tonight?
Anyone? didn't think so. Blah....
maybe my video card will date me.... maybe if I update it's drivers, or send it a digital flower. Perhaps if I tweak its settings for optimal performance, it will oblige.
Damn, if only I could win the lotto. Then maybe I could buy a life.
Anyone? didn't think so. Blah....
maybe my video card will date me.... maybe if I update it's drivers, or send it a digital flower. Perhaps if I tweak its settings for optimal performance, it will oblige.
Damn, if only I could win the lotto. Then maybe I could buy a life.
eponine:
bliargh!
i thought you understood that i didn't want you to make me things like that, etc.
it really really bothers me.
i don't know what else i can say. please don't do that ever again.
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i thought you understood that i didn't want you to make me things like that, etc.
it really really bothers me.
i don't know what else i can say. please don't do that ever again.
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some things are so fragile you can only whisper them. even with this, they may vanish.
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hyenahell:
by speaking it, you bring it forth into existence. or destroy it...
word=god.
word=god.
eponine:
jason...you're weird.
and i'm in new york!
hi.
and i'm in new york!
hi.
*Kicks this sdly miserable day*
In other news...
Was at work for 12 1/2 hours today.
It was worth it though i guess, tomorrow I get paid.
damn, lately my poems and stories really suck.
Here is just one more example. FUCK
GAWD I need a vacation. heh, maybe I could find one in this cup of tea. pfffffftttt.
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Was just watching that...
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dly miserable day*
In other news...
Was at work for 12 1/2 hours today.
It was worth it though i guess, tomorrow I get paid.
damn, lately my poems and stories really suck.
Here is just one more example. FUCK
GAWD I need a vacation. heh, maybe I could find one in this cup of tea.
pfffffftttt.
*edit*
Was just watching that...
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blasfemme:
hey there...sorry your day was poop. thanks for your nice entry.
you can vacation and come visit me
i couldn't finish watching a beautiful mind either, fell asleep....too slow, but i hear it was good.
i hope your friday goes well, i'll be shootin' good thoughts your way.
you can vacation and come visit me
i couldn't finish watching a beautiful mind either, fell asleep....too slow, but i hear it was good.
i hope your friday goes well, i'll be shootin' good thoughts your way.
derby138:
Sorry to hear your having a bad day I hate those days where everything sucks ass. Things will get better *plays a rockin guitar solo from on top of a mountain to raise LostOmens spirits* I tried watching a beautiful mind as well, and couldn't finish it (Why god, why?). So I see ye have come aboard the HEL ship ARR. Have ye been workin on yer looting and pillaging? Aye, neither have I. I'll probably get to it this week...sometime. Feel better.
"Yo ho, yo ho, a pirate's life for me.
We pillage, we plunder, we rifle, and loot,
Drink up, me 'earties, yo ho.
We kidnap and ravage and don't give a hoot,
Drink up me 'earties, yo ho".
-YO HO (A PIRATE'S LIFE FOR ME)
I hate those days where everything sucks ass. Things will get better *plays a rockin guitar solo from on top of a mountain to raise LostOmens spirits* I tried watching a beautiful mind as well, and couldn't finish it (Why god, why?). So I see ye have come aboard the HEL ship ARR. Have ye been workin on yer looting and pillaging? Aye, neither have I. I'll probably get to it this week...sometime. Feel better.
"Yo ho, yo ho, a pirate's life for me.
We pillage, we plunder, we rifle, and loot,
Drink up, me 'earties, yo ho.
We kidnap and ravage and don't give a hoot,
Drink up me 'earties, yo ho".
-YO HO (A PIRATE'S LIFE FOR ME)
*coughs* damn i need to quit smokin' 
check this out. Im under the impression the government has tons of these machines and that they have some giant network of tunnels beneath our feet, all across the country, and probably the rest of the world. Wonder what they use them for. Transporting nuclear and bio/chemical weapons. perhaps its where they keep all the aliens. hahah.
check this out. Im under the impression the government has tons of these machines and that they have some giant network of tunnels beneath our feet, all across the country, and probably the rest of the world. Wonder what they use them for. Transporting nuclear and bio/chemical weapons. perhaps its where they keep all the aliens. hahah.
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kingbugs:
Hey,
if word of the subterrene gets out, I bet all these suburban warriors buy em up like status symbols, just like the hummer.
btw, thanks. almost a professor, almost. friending back, because anyone who groups arthur and the shining together is ok way with me.
if word of the subterrene gets out, I bet all these suburban warriors buy em up like status symbols, just like the hummer.
btw, thanks. almost a professor, almost. friending back, because anyone who groups arthur and the shining together is ok way with me.
temptess:
at least one photo of a body part...
my how things change.
and what is wrong? everything. everything is bad. i'm so sick of my family, i just wish this goddamn vacation were over.
i wish emilie was here, and i wish i wasn't such a fucking asshole.
BLIARGH!