Its due time for some Kenny Rogers' lyrics.
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I woke up this mornin' with the sundown shinin' in
I found my mind in a brown paper bag within
I tripped on a cloud and fell-a eight miles high
I tore my mind on a jagged sky
I just dropped in to see what condition my condition was in.
I pushed my soul in a...
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I woke up this mornin' with the sundown shinin' in
I found my mind in a brown paper bag within
I tripped on a cloud and fell-a eight miles high
I tore my mind on a jagged sky
I just dropped in to see what condition my condition was in.
I pushed my soul in a...
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Some people. I swear to god...... 
You open your heart a little, and it gets spit on, trashed. You show you care a little, and its sliced up and degraded. a compliment is returned with an insult.
Terrible things are said about you behind your back.
you wish you were no longer breathing. you feel like a diseased dis-ease to everything and everyone around you.....
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You open your heart a little, and it gets spit on, trashed. You show you care a little, and its sliced up and degraded. a compliment is returned with an insult.
Terrible things are said about you behind your back.
you wish you were no longer breathing. you feel like a diseased dis-ease to everything and everyone around you.....
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blasfemme:
i don't want a car, i already have a mini-van that works just fine. you could make good on visiting me however 
jason, really....i meant it when i said "if you need me...."
jason, really....i meant it when i said "if you need me...."
derby138:
Lets see...how about the bat mobile. Mwahahaha! That means I'll be BAT MAN. Would you like to ride with Bat Man? Then we could drive around town beating up thugs and bad guys Or you could just come to L.A. and party with me
Or you could just come to L.A. and party with me bad day, decent day, worse day. ok day. bad day, decent day, worse day, BLAH. Caught in a downward spiral of mundane routine...
God, if you're listening......Ahhh, nevermind.
God, if you're listening......Ahhh, nevermind.
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blasfemme:
well get your rear in gear and come visit!!
that would be fun if you came to minneapolis. we'd rock this town.
i hope your weekend doesn't suck.
oh and, do you want me to kick her ass for you??
*points up at eponine's post*
i'm a ninja and i'm on your side. pirates have no grace, they just rape and pillage, L O S E R S!!
LISTEN UP pirate freaks, don't mess with jason and radia cause they'll ninja-fi your ass!!!
how's that??
thanks for being you jason
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that would be fun if you came to minneapolis. we'd rock this town.
i hope your weekend doesn't suck.
oh and, do you want me to kick her ass for you??
*points up at eponine's post*
i'm a ninja and i'm on your side. pirates have no grace, they just rape and pillage, L O S E R S!!
LISTEN UP pirate freaks, don't mess with jason and radia cause they'll ninja-fi your ass!!!
how's that??
thanks for being you jason
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lookit some of this artwork and smithing..
WOW
I've been on this strange high since the Renaissance Festival. I can't get enough of that kinda stuff. I'm gonna try my damndest to work there next summer. I need to submit my app. as soon as they are taking them, for next year's fest that is. I think i'd try and be the smity's apprentice or...
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WOW
I've been on this strange high since the Renaissance Festival. I can't get enough of that kinda stuff. I'm gonna try my damndest to work there next summer. I need to submit my app. as soon as they are taking them, for next year's fest that is. I think i'd try and be the smity's apprentice or...
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derby138:
That sites pretty cool. I want to get one of my girly friends one of those Arwen evenstar pendants. Those things are really nice. I also wanna buy the ring of Aragorn for myself 
Oh, my mom works all the fairs out here in california and she says they're really fun and worth the time and effort. Anyhow, how are you holdin' up? Are you feeling any better? I hope so Take it easy.
Oh, my mom works all the fairs out here in california and she says they're really fun and worth the time and effort. Anyhow, how are you holdin' up? Are you feeling any better? I hope so Take it easy.
eponine:
what the hell...you can't even be in the same room as me?
well, if you're reading this, you can go back to concessions and hang out with everyone, i'm in box and i won't be coming back out to bother you.
well, if you're reading this, you can go back to concessions and hang out with everyone, i'm in box and i won't be coming back out to bother you.
I think i'd like to go hide in a hole and die now.
I turn everything into a flaming wreck.
I turn everything into a flaming wreck.
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derby138:
oh no, what happen? 
You need me to go hurt someone for you? I have a light saber prototype I've been meaning to try out! Sorry I haven't posted in a while, I've been super busy trying to find a job. Feel better man. Let me know if theres anything I can do. Don't make me have to go play another guitar solo on top of a mountain for you (don't test me, I'll do it) Anyhow, go jam on the guitar for a while, that always helps.
You need me to go hurt someone for you? I have a light saber prototype I've been meaning to try out! Sorry I haven't posted in a while, I've been super busy trying to find a job. Feel better man. Let me know if theres anything I can do. Don't make me have to go play another guitar solo on top of a mountain for you (don't test me, I'll do it) Anyhow, go jam on the guitar for a while, that always helps.
derby138:
Yeah, thats me in my profile pic. My friend took that pic when my band played at the key club in hollywood 
I'm playing a Ibanez 5 string bass with a skull mounted on it. I love that bass! Its my lady feeling any better? Tomorrow will hopefully be better
I'm playing a Ibanez 5 string bass with a skull mounted on it. I love that bass! Its my lady feeling any better? Tomorrow will hopefully be better BAH.
ingrid:
Hey, what's this BAH?
Think of pink bunnies and fluffy rainbows and bright sunshine!!
I hope your day gets better... Maybe reading a letter would help?
*Hugs!!!*
Think of pink bunnies and fluffy rainbows and bright sunshine!!
I hope your day gets better... Maybe reading a letter would help?
*Hugs!!!*
roxypixie:
rawr. wax. tac. banana.
im addicted to this site like it's nicotine 
Between today and yesterday, i have spent about 20 hours in photoshop. Im a nerd like that..
I dont really have anyone to share this stuff with, so I'll share it with you, if you're interested.
1. I made this a while ago. It's one of my better ones i think.
2.This one, I made yesterday. I like it cause its simple, nothing too...
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I dont really have anyone to share this stuff with, so I'll share it with you, if you're interested.
1. I made this a while ago. It's one of my better ones i think.
2.This one, I made yesterday. I like it cause its simple, nothing too...
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ingrid:
:BLUSH: I came here to say that the pictures you've made are simply beautiful, and thank you for your comments that made me smile, and then -- I saw myself up there in your favorites. :more blushing: Anyway, thank you!!
Gonna write more to you soon when I can... I hope you have a happy day!
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Gonna write more to you soon when I can...
I hope you have a happy day![Edited on Jul 09, 2003]
unclepussy:
it's so easy to get sucked into photoshop for hours and hours. you barely notice the time slipping away.
once i had a part-time job dropping the backgrounds from objects using the pen tool for a jewelry retailer. it was a pain in the ass because you tied to complete them as fast as you can but you had to do a decent job and you got paid by the piece so you could see the time slipping away as you toiled on every detail of these gawdy watches adn bracelets. terrible job but i got to work at home. the only benefit.
once i had a part-time job dropping the backgrounds from objects using the pen tool for a jewelry retailer. it was a pain in the ass because you tied to complete them as fast as you can but you had to do a decent job and you got paid by the piece so you could see the time slipping away as you toiled on every detail of these gawdy watches adn bracelets. terrible job but i got to work at home. the only benefit.
The Renaissance Festival kicked ass.
I had more fun there that day, then i've had anywhere in a good month. I spent about a hundred bucks on a bunch of cool junk. I knew i couldn't afford it, but hell, that bill i brought was burning a hole in my pocket. They had some pretty good wares in the Armory section, cool swords and what...
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I had more fun there that day, then i've had anywhere in a good month. I spent about a hundred bucks on a bunch of cool junk. I knew i couldn't afford it, but hell, that bill i brought was burning a hole in my pocket. They had some pretty good wares in the Armory section, cool swords and what...
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roxypixie:
Well, yeah, it is happening to me, but it's not bugging me so much. I'm a tough one. Don't want more drama.
I didn't see Mars! I didn't even know it was there to be seen right then!
Heh, the little poem is a couple lines froma song by K's Choice.
I've always wanted to go to a renaissance festival. I think I would be a good ren fairie.
I didn't see Mars! I didn't even know it was there to be seen right then!
Heh, the little poem is a couple lines froma song by K's Choice.
I've always wanted to go to a renaissance festival. I think I would be a good ren fairie.
eponine:
my poor little julie.
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Today was a miserable fiend. A dark cloud bellowing high, ready to rain on me. Damnit. Once again.
Don't worry, Im not going to bitch about the details here. I'll just post some crapy poetry i wrote to make me feel better.
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I feel it snowing again, under my skin.
I'd give a hundred lifetimes to live my best memories again.
Like flakes of...
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Don't worry, Im not going to bitch about the details here. I'll just post some crapy poetry i wrote to make me feel better.
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I feel it snowing again, under my skin.
I'd give a hundred lifetimes to live my best memories again.
Like flakes of...
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roxypixie:
I hope you feel better, and the poem wasn't so crappy.
4th of july sucked except for the food. i like food.
4th of july sucked except for the food. i like food.
vastad:
Richard? Wheelchair?....so was he the long-haired guy in the wheelchair in the movie? you met him? WOW!
As terrible as what those two did at Columbine, I find it hard to....to be angry at them. granted I had no personal stake in the tragedy, no family members or friends. But still....focusing all that hate and blame on just those two...well, they were a symptom. If you remember what Matt Stone - creator of South Park - said about that very same school he went to....the social killing grounds, the incredible pressure to be 'in' or 'out'...the utter conviction that if you failed in high school socially, academically, athletically: you failed your entire life.
What's also tragic is that this most likely taught that town and the entire nation absolutely nothing. Instead, the youth got demonised and subject to a subversive witch hunt that shit in the dignity and rights of one of the most repressed and manipulated social groups in the world: teenagers.
*****
You are welcome for the testimonial. I sense a kindred spirit in you and it deserves notice. In fact, you are kind of scary because I can sometimes see myself crystal clear in the challenges I have already faced, and am still facing. We all learn at our own pace, and that pace is perfect, but I want to help nonetheless.
*****
Having a girl...
Yeah...I even gone through that. Look, I know you've heard this before, but really you need to focus on yourself. When you find your own center, you won't have to find a girl. A girl will find you. It's really clich but I have met more than my share of people who have discovered it by will or by accident. I am hardly a poster boy for this clich since I have only begun to find my own center. I am really very very single most of the time. Nor do I lack admirers, but often they reflect my flaws and are not the kind of partner I seek. I will never go so low as to just accept whatever will have me just to not be alone. I have my dignity. I CHOOSE to be single knowing it is the healthier option right now.
I personally don't believe in luck. Not one bit. So you shouldn't either.
And you know what? I'm personally learning to be very OK with not having anyone around. Loneliness is a challenge but it can be dealt with and it's worth finding those ways.
Tell me if I'm repeating myself or you've heard all this before.
You have barely started, so don't worry about finding a path. Just keep your eyes open and try really wild and different things that catch your interest. Heck, if it'll help and it's within means, travel.
As terrible as what those two did at Columbine, I find it hard to....to be angry at them. granted I had no personal stake in the tragedy, no family members or friends. But still....focusing all that hate and blame on just those two...well, they were a symptom. If you remember what Matt Stone - creator of South Park - said about that very same school he went to....the social killing grounds, the incredible pressure to be 'in' or 'out'...the utter conviction that if you failed in high school socially, academically, athletically: you failed your entire life.
What's also tragic is that this most likely taught that town and the entire nation absolutely nothing. Instead, the youth got demonised and subject to a subversive witch hunt that shit in the dignity and rights of one of the most repressed and manipulated social groups in the world: teenagers.
*****
You are welcome for the testimonial. I sense a kindred spirit in you and it deserves notice. In fact, you are kind of scary because I can sometimes see myself crystal clear in the challenges I have already faced, and am still facing. We all learn at our own pace, and that pace is perfect, but I want to help nonetheless.
*****
Having a girl...
Yeah...I even gone through that. Look, I know you've heard this before, but really you need to focus on yourself. When you find your own center, you won't have to find a girl. A girl will find you. It's really clich but I have met more than my share of people who have discovered it by will or by accident. I am hardly a poster boy for this clich since I have only begun to find my own center. I am really very very single most of the time. Nor do I lack admirers, but often they reflect my flaws and are not the kind of partner I seek. I will never go so low as to just accept whatever will have me just to not be alone. I have my dignity. I CHOOSE to be single knowing it is the healthier option right now.
I personally don't believe in luck. Not one bit. So you shouldn't either.
And you know what? I'm personally learning to be very OK with not having anyone around. Loneliness is a challenge but it can be dealt with and it's worth finding those ways.
Tell me if I'm repeating myself or you've heard all this before.
You have barely started, so don't worry about finding a path. Just keep your eyes open and try really wild and different things that catch your interest. Heck, if it'll help and it's within means, travel.
By the way, is that song also in Big Lebowski, but by someone else???