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well get your rear in gear and come visit!!
that would be fun if you came to minneapolis. we'd rock this town.

i hope your weekend doesn't suck.
oh and, do you want me to kick her ass for you??
*points up at eponine's post*
i'm a ninja and i'm on your side. pirates have no grace, they just rape and pillage, L O S E R S!!

LISTEN UP pirate freaks, don't mess with jason and radia cause they'll ninja-fi your ass!!!
how's that??

thanks for being you jason
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That sites pretty cool. I want to get one of my girly friends one of those Arwen evenstar pendants. Those things are really nice. I also wanna buy the ring of Aragorn for myself Oh, my mom works all the fairs out here in california and she says they're really fun and worth the time and effort. Anyhow, how are you holdin' up? Are you feeling any better? I hope so Take it easy.

what the hell...you can't even be in the same room as me?
well, if you're reading this, you can go back to concessions and hang out with everyone, i'm in box and i won't be coming back out to bother you.

oh no, what happen? You need me to go hurt someone for you? I have a light saber prototype I've been meaning to try out! Sorry I haven't posted in a while, I've been super busy trying to find a job. Feel better man. Let me know if theres anything I can do. Don't make me have to go play another guitar solo on top of a mountain for you (don't test me, I'll do it) Anyhow, go jam on the guitar for a while, that always helps.

Yeah, thats me in my profile pic. My friend took that pic when my band played at the key club in hollywood I'm playing a Ibanez 5 string bass with a skull mounted on it. I love that bass! Its my lady feeling any better? Tomorrow will hopefully be better

rawr. wax. tac. banana.

it's so easy to get sucked into photoshop for hours and hours. you barely notice the time slipping away.

once i had a part-time job dropping the backgrounds from objects using the pen tool for a jewelry retailer. it was a pain in the ass because you tied to complete them as fast as you can but you had to do a decent job and you got paid by the piece so you could see the time slipping away as you toiled on every detail of these gawdy watches adn bracelets. terrible job but i got to work at home. the only benefit.

Well, yeah, it is happening to me, but it's not bugging me so much. I'm a tough one. Don't want more drama.

I didn't see Mars! I didn't even know it was there to be seen right then!

Heh, the little poem is a couple lines froma song by K's Choice.

I've always wanted to go to a renaissance festival. I think I would be a good ren fairie.

my poor little julie.


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I hope you feel better, and the poem wasn't so crappy.
4th of july sucked except for the food. i like food.

Richard? Wheelchair?....so was he the long-haired guy in the wheelchair in the movie? you met him? WOW!

As terrible as what those two did at Columbine, I find it hard to....to be angry at them. granted I had no personal stake in the tragedy, no family members or friends. But still....focusing all that hate and blame on just those two...well, they were a symptom. If you remember what Matt Stone - creator of South Park - said about that very same school he went to....the social killing grounds, the incredible pressure to be 'in' or 'out'...the utter conviction that if you failed in high school socially, academically, athletically: you failed your entire life.

What's also tragic is that this most likely taught that town and the entire nation absolutely nothing. Instead, the youth got demonised and subject to a subversive witch hunt that shit in the dignity and rights of one of the most repressed and manipulated social groups in the world: teenagers.

*****

You are welcome for the testimonial. I sense a kindred spirit in you and it deserves notice. In fact, you are kind of scary because I can sometimes see myself crystal clear in the challenges I have already faced, and am still facing. We all learn at our own pace, and that pace is perfect, but I want to help nonetheless.

*****

Having a girl...

Yeah...I even gone through that. Look, I know you've heard this before, but really you need to focus on yourself. When you find your own center, you won't have to find a girl. A girl will find you. It's really clich but I have met more than my share of people who have discovered it by will or by accident. I am hardly a poster boy for this clich since I have only begun to find my own center. I am really very very single most of the time. Nor do I lack admirers, but often they reflect my flaws and are not the kind of partner I seek. I will never go so low as to just accept whatever will have me just to not be alone. I have my dignity. I CHOOSE to be single knowing it is the healthier option right now.


I personally don't believe in luck. Not one bit. So you shouldn't either.

And you know what? I'm personally learning to be very OK with not having anyone around. Loneliness is a challenge but it can be dealt with and it's worth finding those ways.

Tell me if I'm repeating myself or you've heard all this before.

You have barely started, so don't worry about finding a path. Just keep your eyes open and try really wild and different things that catch your interest. Heck, if it'll help and it's within means, travel.

i sit inside working feverishly on the new programs i got in the mail from a certain excellent SG member. a precious cd that saved me money and hassle. oooooooo the joy

you were naked outside?
my how things change.
and what is wrong? everything. everything is bad. i'm so sick of my family, i just wish this goddamn vacation were over.
i wish emilie was here, and i wish i wasn't such a fucking asshole.
BLIARGH!

I heard that song on the radio yesterday and thought of you.

i sent you an email.
...

Oh wow....to read your Journal is like going down memory lane.

Happiness comes when you don't give a shit what people think of you. I'm looking for that too. I think I'm doing well in my progress. Nowadays I react to lame people not with a slump, a sigh and a 'poor me' but with self-propping anger...'you don't know me! you can't say that! you have no fucking idea how cool I really am! I don't need to stick around here and waste my time with you!'
....and I just ignore them and hang out with people that rock.

Hey, I'm sorry I took so long to answer. And thank you, really, really, really thank you for the little dedication you put up for my friend. She's going to get it soon.
It's very sweet and it's more than anyone could ask for or expect.

Your doing that Zen archery stuff with the Daikyu right? What was the art called again...?

i never have that problem, quite the opposite actually.
i am bordeline narcoleptic.

tornado sirens are going off, it's eerie out, the stillness is a tell-tale sign of that reality. i grew up in oklahoma tho so this is nothing for me.

thanks for your sweet journal entry LO

hope you get some sleep