lostjohny

Happy V-day everyone. I, once again, am alone in my house. with only my nephews here...asleep at last. I guess it's time for updates. Well, tomorrow i will laugh internally as my general manager rolls out the cost of living joke...er, i mean raise. And because of the train wreck i foresee coming next year when Toyota signs th dotted line, i am leaving. i have my first round of interviews with International Paper next Friday. It's not that I want to leave, it's the fact that the general manager i have now is such a bean counter that the brutally real vision that i see, he does not. He won't spend the money necessary to update the plant, or hire more people...he believes in minimal overtime. moron. so i'm jumping ship early. actually they should expect it. in 5 years i've gotten one raise. one. they had the best excuses when it came to not handing out raises. oh well, so goes the corporate life, huh?

I'm meeting the ex next weekend to pick sara up. yes i know i'm an idiot. i've almost got her room redone, it should be ready by the end of this weekend. then i get to prepare for her third birthday party. i swear ya'll...it seemed like yesterday when she was born. time is just speeding by.

today really made me think about my state of being. am i a good person? am i a good father? do i stretch myself too thin? i'm also realizing i let my family walk all over me. i need to stop letting them do that. it's one of those "empty-husk-of-a-soul" days i guess.

tell me at least some of you are in a happy state of being....please?