Well time has sped up on me once again
Having a day job seems to do that, 7:30am till 4pm each day is a drain. Even better is that they have manditory overtime, so it might be 7:30am to 5pm somedays and also working on Saturday.....
Cant wait........
Its not a bad job, but its terribly dull at times, and I hate being awake that early. If anything Im more of a 9 to 5 kinda guy I suppose. that way I can be up till 11 or 12 at night without any major sleep problem the next morning. I need 8 hours or I dont function well, so lately Ive been going to bed at 9 or 10 just so I can be awake by 5 or 6 /sigh
The reason I was afraid last week was because I had to take a physical for work, never done that before and I had a rather traumatic incedent with blood being taken when I was around 10 years old... they havent been able to take my blood since then because I wont let anyone come near me if I think thats what they want to do.
Anyhow I got myself worked up over nothing in the end, physical was a joke really. Ive had some rough nights though, last week I cried myself to sleep one night because of all the sadness and fear I bury overwhelmed me yet again. I just hate where I am at in life, regreat my mistakes from the past, and miss the people I use to know alot. Part of the reason I dont go out and make friends much is because I know someday they will go away too.
It happens alot in peoples lives if you look at it, something changes and people fade away. Weather it be childhood, highschool, college, people always fade away over time. Im not trying to make any friends at work, no one there really my age Id want to talk to. maybe the lady who hired me because she is a nice middle aged lady, and she has a very mom like aura I suppose.
I dunno, its hard to talk to people when all that is on your mind is the human existance, philosophy and the state of our world. Big topics that people usually avoid I guess... ah well, time to look at the naked women for awhile
Having a day job seems to do that, 7:30am till 4pm each day is a drain. Even better is that they have manditory overtime, so it might be 7:30am to 5pm somedays and also working on Saturday.....
Cant wait........
Its not a bad job, but its terribly dull at times, and I hate being awake that early. If anything Im more of a 9 to 5 kinda guy I suppose. that way I can be up till 11 or 12 at night without any major sleep problem the next morning. I need 8 hours or I dont function well, so lately Ive been going to bed at 9 or 10 just so I can be awake by 5 or 6 /sigh
The reason I was afraid last week was because I had to take a physical for work, never done that before and I had a rather traumatic incedent with blood being taken when I was around 10 years old... they havent been able to take my blood since then because I wont let anyone come near me if I think thats what they want to do.
Anyhow I got myself worked up over nothing in the end, physical was a joke really. Ive had some rough nights though, last week I cried myself to sleep one night because of all the sadness and fear I bury overwhelmed me yet again. I just hate where I am at in life, regreat my mistakes from the past, and miss the people I use to know alot. Part of the reason I dont go out and make friends much is because I know someday they will go away too.
It happens alot in peoples lives if you look at it, something changes and people fade away. Weather it be childhood, highschool, college, people always fade away over time. Im not trying to make any friends at work, no one there really my age Id want to talk to. maybe the lady who hired me because she is a nice middle aged lady, and she has a very mom like aura I suppose.
I dunno, its hard to talk to people when all that is on your mind is the human existance, philosophy and the state of our world. Big topics that people usually avoid I guess... ah well, time to look at the naked women for awhile
salliss:
Thank you for showing love on my new set! xxxx