lordauch

This job leaves me feeling sick. Things are so fucked up I cant get anything done. He hasn't said anything but my bosses leers are ever present.. Fuck!

I don't think I am incompetent, but I feel it. Nothing works right. All the software is cracked so no updates for issues. The p3 866 I work on shut off 4 times today spontaneously. If I move something in Acad it takes 30 sec wile the graphics card redraws it.

Fuck! He had someone do Max renderings somewhere else and wonders why it doesnt work here.

It takes half an hour to find files because there are thousands of them in almost no order, and many duplicates.

Why is everything so fucking difficult. I start to get frustrated and my head feels like it is going to explode.

I am hesitant to say fuck it because I need money and a place to stay. I have done that in the past and I am trying not to be a baby about things but some how the deck is stacked against me. Maybe its me and I just cant hack it.

I called a few places that I interviewed with a few weeks ago.

If the stakes werent so high maybe I would feel differently. but once homeless I dont see a way out.