Happy New Year everyone!
Yes, it looks like i'm going to squeeze another bit of SG goodness out of my account before it shuts down.
Operation Cookie Jar was a resounding success. I downloaded a total of 15+gigs worth of new material. I officially used enough bandwidth to qualify as a small business. HAH!!!!!!!!!!!!
Operation Hootenany went somewhat ok. I was catching a cold, however. I wasn't in the best of moods. However, I had a good time. I celebrated new years with fun and games. I also learned a few new things.
1). My redneck town wasn't that bad, but wasn't a picnic either.
2). Aya's one crafty mofo.
3). I need to brush up on my intellectual persuits, because the whole time I felt like a dullard.
4). Cats are LOUD when they need to get some action.
5). One is not lacking in masculinity if the opposite sex is not interested in them.
Aya and her buddies hooked me up with the revelry. Nice to have a friend! YAY!
But anyways, I found out myself that I can think and philosphy all I want, but I'm a hack. The way I see it, I speak what's on my heart because it needs to get out. Hack away pally...
I observe the relationships in the group I was with. Friends. Lovers. Acquaintances. I was the new guy, and I'm not sure if i'll ever be in that group again because my connection to that scene will be going back to college soon. But I was given the opportunity to observe a new group, new habits, new relationships.
The lovers baffled me. How? Why? But it was undeniable. So deeply in love, I could not help but find it a mystery.
The only time I see such relationships is between the couples at church. Not even the relationships I saw at college or high school were as sincere in their intent and feeling as I observed.
Now I know why I did not find love before. Not only did I not know what it was I was looking for, but also what kind of interactions involved such relationships. And I must say, it is complex and difficult to figure out. There is some things I still can't figure out.
But I know what I saw between two friends, two people that I rarely get to see in person, was real. It was amazing. How do they do that?
Then there was the friendships. I was the odd man out, just the interloper, and I felt left out a little when they talked about high school. I tried to chip in my stories, but it seemed to turn awry, or it took a back seat to their own. But it wasn't about me or my experiences. It was about a group of friends getting together and having a good time, and good times involve memories. I wish I had some common memories to share. Maybe next time, perhaps. I would love to contribute.
Then there was the individuals. Myself being frustrated by the fact that I was unfamiliar with their games. The deftness of their minds as they picked strategies like plums. And here I was, holding up the line! My mind would wander, or I would just be fascinated by how this group interacted.
So in short, the evening was fun. But it was also so strange to be the observer again, to see some other tribe of people, to report back to whomever I could about what I saw, and trying to learn from this group about the things I lack and what their example could teach me.
Sometimes it's good to be the odd man out. It affords me unique opportunities.
Goodbye and godbless, folks. Especially Aya, Nat, and others. Might not see you guys again, but let's hope that won't be the case.
Happy New Years everyone.
BTW, i'm forgoing my resolution. Never execute the damn resolution anyways.
Yes, it looks like i'm going to squeeze another bit of SG goodness out of my account before it shuts down.
Operation Cookie Jar was a resounding success. I downloaded a total of 15+gigs worth of new material. I officially used enough bandwidth to qualify as a small business. HAH!!!!!!!!!!!!
Operation Hootenany went somewhat ok. I was catching a cold, however. I wasn't in the best of moods. However, I had a good time. I celebrated new years with fun and games. I also learned a few new things.
1). My redneck town wasn't that bad, but wasn't a picnic either.
2). Aya's one crafty mofo.
3). I need to brush up on my intellectual persuits, because the whole time I felt like a dullard.
4). Cats are LOUD when they need to get some action.
5). One is not lacking in masculinity if the opposite sex is not interested in them.
Aya and her buddies hooked me up with the revelry. Nice to have a friend! YAY!
But anyways, I found out myself that I can think and philosphy all I want, but I'm a hack. The way I see it, I speak what's on my heart because it needs to get out. Hack away pally...
I observe the relationships in the group I was with. Friends. Lovers. Acquaintances. I was the new guy, and I'm not sure if i'll ever be in that group again because my connection to that scene will be going back to college soon. But I was given the opportunity to observe a new group, new habits, new relationships.
The lovers baffled me. How? Why? But it was undeniable. So deeply in love, I could not help but find it a mystery.
The only time I see such relationships is between the couples at church. Not even the relationships I saw at college or high school were as sincere in their intent and feeling as I observed.
Now I know why I did not find love before. Not only did I not know what it was I was looking for, but also what kind of interactions involved such relationships. And I must say, it is complex and difficult to figure out. There is some things I still can't figure out.
But I know what I saw between two friends, two people that I rarely get to see in person, was real. It was amazing. How do they do that?
Then there was the friendships. I was the odd man out, just the interloper, and I felt left out a little when they talked about high school. I tried to chip in my stories, but it seemed to turn awry, or it took a back seat to their own. But it wasn't about me or my experiences. It was about a group of friends getting together and having a good time, and good times involve memories. I wish I had some common memories to share. Maybe next time, perhaps. I would love to contribute.
Then there was the individuals. Myself being frustrated by the fact that I was unfamiliar with their games. The deftness of their minds as they picked strategies like plums. And here I was, holding up the line! My mind would wander, or I would just be fascinated by how this group interacted.
So in short, the evening was fun. But it was also so strange to be the observer again, to see some other tribe of people, to report back to whomever I could about what I saw, and trying to learn from this group about the things I lack and what their example could teach me.
Sometimes it's good to be the odd man out. It affords me unique opportunities.
Goodbye and godbless, folks. Especially Aya, Nat, and others. Might not see you guys again, but let's hope that won't be the case.
Happy New Years everyone.
BTW, i'm forgoing my resolution. Never execute the damn resolution anyways.
awww shucks!!!