Ok, so it's round two..
This time I figured I'd put some of my writing up. I kind of have mixed feelings about it all. On one side it's sacred, every ounce of ink belongs in my skin to keep me alive. On the other hand, it needs to be broken free from things that bind it...
Pierce.
Take these veins, feel how fragile they are
Tears flow through the hollow tubes.
They once brought life to this heart.
Blood rushes to my head,
Instructing jagged thoughts to cloud my vision of hope.
Gripping.
I struggle to hold on.
Knuckles turn white,
As my memories slip.
Anything not to fall.
Gasp.
Air fades from desiccated lungs.
Swallow hard to find some truth.
Choke down lies,
Gag on false intentions.
Leave.
Strewn pieces of life are buried.
Impenetrable skin pulls itself together.
Guarding whats left,
Of this girl I pronounce dead
*******
Here goes nothing
Im jumping in head first
So that I may feel the pain in its entirety
Dont just stand there
Grab my hand lets take the plunge
Fear is not to be an issue
Youre a fool if you leave me
Damn you, you nave little girl
Must you always run?
My feet tremble as they reach the edge
Never to return you understand
The current below lulls me in a trance
One of serenity and hope
Hope that my hell will soon die,
Die along with a tortured soul
For I know who watches over me
Prized as life should be, I no longer fret
The river will wash me of my sins
The rocks as they pierce my pale skin will free poisoned blood
A mighty wind is to carry the message of my death
For I am too much a coward to voice my hurt
The hurt that haunts me every second of every day
No longer must I suffer with the demons that lie within
It is to you, my so called friend,
That I rest my final words with
Take them how you will
Speak of them how you see fit
Promise me that your heart will remain soft
Mine has long since gone cold and fragile
I feel it time to say goodbye my loved one
The river calls my name
For once, tranquility will surround me
I love you my dear sister
Please see that your tears fall elsewhere
You will forever be in my thoughts,
Thoughts that only the wind can deliver.
*****
Ok, so these are rough copies and written months ago. I hope someone finds in them what I did.
This time I figured I'd put some of my writing up. I kind of have mixed feelings about it all. On one side it's sacred, every ounce of ink belongs in my skin to keep me alive. On the other hand, it needs to be broken free from things that bind it...
Pierce.
Take these veins, feel how fragile they are
Tears flow through the hollow tubes.
They once brought life to this heart.
Blood rushes to my head,
Instructing jagged thoughts to cloud my vision of hope.
Gripping.
I struggle to hold on.
Knuckles turn white,
As my memories slip.
Anything not to fall.
Gasp.
Air fades from desiccated lungs.
Swallow hard to find some truth.
Choke down lies,
Gag on false intentions.
Leave.
Strewn pieces of life are buried.
Impenetrable skin pulls itself together.
Guarding whats left,
Of this girl I pronounce dead
*******
Here goes nothing
Im jumping in head first
So that I may feel the pain in its entirety
Dont just stand there
Grab my hand lets take the plunge
Fear is not to be an issue
Youre a fool if you leave me
Damn you, you nave little girl
Must you always run?
My feet tremble as they reach the edge
Never to return you understand
The current below lulls me in a trance
One of serenity and hope
Hope that my hell will soon die,
Die along with a tortured soul
For I know who watches over me
Prized as life should be, I no longer fret
The river will wash me of my sins
The rocks as they pierce my pale skin will free poisoned blood
A mighty wind is to carry the message of my death
For I am too much a coward to voice my hurt
The hurt that haunts me every second of every day
No longer must I suffer with the demons that lie within
It is to you, my so called friend,
That I rest my final words with
Take them how you will
Speak of them how you see fit
Promise me that your heart will remain soft
Mine has long since gone cold and fragile
I feel it time to say goodbye my loved one
The river calls my name
For once, tranquility will surround me
I love you my dear sister
Please see that your tears fall elsewhere
You will forever be in my thoughts,
Thoughts that only the wind can deliver.
*****
Ok, so these are rough copies and written months ago. I hope someone finds in them what I did.
Eli's journals are often quite poetic. I think one of the things I often like is how "ordinary" life, emotions, events, etc. can be made to sound extraordinary with the right words. Poetry can do that.
Thanks for sharing.