I think it is about time I update here. Since my last journal, I had been feeling better. I was happy and feeling better about things in general. But now, I have had a bit of a relapse so to speak. I am just in a really cruddy mood. There are some things that have been getting to me. Problems at work, with money, and with my break up with Nichole. I was a rebound for her, which pretty much doomed us right there, but the fact that we were so far apart didnt help things any. I think something may have been going on with her and her ex. When her and I first got together I found out that she was still having some feelings for him. It always bothered me, but she said she was over him, and I partialy believed her. She started hanging out with him more and more, and was drifting further away from me. I loved her more than I had ever loved anybody, and when we split up, that was one of the most painful things I have ever felt. Now I see signs that they are back together and I think she was cheating on me. I don't know for certain though, and I don't want to jump to conclusions. After we broke up our friendship was VERY rocky, but now we are doing just fine. I just don't like the idea of her getting hurt by him again, and obviously I am upset that she hurt me.
If I have EVER needed a friend, it is now. What sucks is that my 2 best friends can't really give me the moral support I need. Dalton, well, I just can't really open up to guys like i can females. And I can't go to Kayla because Nichole and her were best friends, so Kay has a bit of a biased opinion of Nikki. Due to work and things of the sort, I am short on friends around home. I have some friends online that give me a bit of moral support, but I still feel like that doesn't quite cut it because I am merely typing to someone I have never met in person.
I guess I should just concentrate on other things, like work ( or maybe not XD ) and my art. I should also try to get out more, maybe spend more time with Dalton and Kay.
I have said about all I feel like saying right now, so good day to you all.
-Loper
If I have EVER needed a friend, it is now. What sucks is that my 2 best friends can't really give me the moral support I need. Dalton, well, I just can't really open up to guys like i can females. And I can't go to Kayla because Nichole and her were best friends, so Kay has a bit of a biased opinion of Nikki. Due to work and things of the sort, I am short on friends around home. I have some friends online that give me a bit of moral support, but I still feel like that doesn't quite cut it because I am merely typing to someone I have never met in person.
I guess I should just concentrate on other things, like work ( or maybe not XD ) and my art. I should also try to get out more, maybe spend more time with Dalton and Kay.
I have said about all I feel like saying right now, so good day to you all.
-Loper
rockdolly:
Hey-sorry about your break-up. That really sucks...I've had those pains as well. If you ever need to talk to me or write to me about how you're feeling you're more then welcome to. Was Bon someone you knew or still know? Anyways, anyone that is going to cheat on you or not give you their fullest in a relationship isn't worth your time. I learned that the hard way. Anyways I have to go but I'll ttyl. Peace.