a storm is forming beyond the clouds
creating a sea of changes...
once again my dreams have been preparing me to the changes that are quickly approaching. uncertainty, stress, and choas- inseperable conepts that are associated with change. though i have learned that it is best to go with the natural flow of things i still question myself- asking if i have made the most...
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creating a sea of changes...
once again my dreams have been preparing me to the changes that are quickly approaching. uncertainty, stress, and choas- inseperable conepts that are associated with change. though i have learned that it is best to go with the natural flow of things i still question myself- asking if i have made the most...
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kinto:
Miss you.
johnnyforeigner:
Good to see you again 
Hope you had a good time, I loved it 
Hope you had a good time, I loved it 
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tubesound:
Just realised that you're not on my friends list and any lover of Jeff's is a lover of mi... O no...err.. bye!
adthrawn:
Rahhh...
and now for an updated entry- WOOHOOO!!! (and the crowds go wild!) don't really have much to say right now as i must prepare for a presentation about the paranormal- should be interesting. and if any one would like to share any paranormal experiences or thoughts about the paranormal that would be most appreciated since i am doing my dissertation on belief/disbelief in paranormal phenomenon. 
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kinto:
from me to you
from me to you
deleteddelete:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
(you kept that one quiet last night eh
)
(you kept that one quiet last night eh
)so, uhm...thinking function is not in full capacity at the moment but if there is anyone who still reads this or feels neglected i am sorry....things are a bit chaotic with school right now but i will make more of an effort once the storm subsides in june. ttfn. 
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kinto:
Have a kitten
I you
I
youWoke up today with this song in my head:
Do You Realize - that you have the most beautiful face
Do You Realize - we're floating in space
Do You Realize - that happiness makes you cry
Do You Realize - that everyone you know someday will die
And instead of saying all of your goodbyes - let them know
You realize that life goes...
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Do You Realize - that you have the most beautiful face
Do You Realize - we're floating in space
Do You Realize - that happiness makes you cry
Do You Realize - that everyone you know someday will die
And instead of saying all of your goodbyes - let them know
You realize that life goes...
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kinto:
Je t'aime mon bb
gixxer1300156949:
What have you been doing?!?!?
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robkarloff:
Yeah... I have had that thought creep across my mind!! 
I really dunno The girl I like is leaving soon though, and I already tried the whole long-distance thing... The friend is fun and I like her, I guess I'm just not going giddy over her like the girl! Bah, I give up!!! 
I really dunno The girl I like is leaving soon though, and I already tried the whole long-distance thing... The friend is fun and I like her, I guess I'm just not going giddy over her like the girl! Bah, I give up!!!
gixxer1300156949:
Hey.....what's that tattoo on your arm say? Where will you be in the states for your masters?
damn i'm bored....should be working on my essay but i have no desire or inspiration. i have become the official queen of procrastination. so instead of doing what i should be i decided to add a few more pics to my folder, some new and some REALLY old ones that i just recently found stored in my pc.
anyways, i hope to find a way...
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anyways, i hope to find a way...
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robkarloff:
Listening to Soundgarden or Chris Cornell's solo stuff does it for me. Relaxes the mind, gets me thinking straight. Hope you're doing well!!
munch:
great new tattoo there miss - it's awesome!!
hope your doing ok - was good to see you guys on saturday, hopefully we'll see you again soon...
hope your doing ok - was good to see you guys on saturday, hopefully we'll see you again soon...
it's so easy to get lost in your head, thoughts circling round and round like a tornado- taking both reason and logic along with it. everyone has there own little world, there own thoughts, demons, dreams, complexes and so on. sometimes i wonder exactly how much one person can enter the world of another- sure from time to time people will click and find themselves...
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hermes:
Well it's true that what see of the world is really a reality of your own construction. It may share similarities and overlaps with other people's versions, but yours is unique to you. I suppose the key is to realise that you have a lot of control over what you decide is real and important to you, and in many ways it doesn't really matter what you believe as long as it gets you through the day and you're not harming anyone else. Perhaps a more intriguing question is whether there's any objective truth or reality out there, or whether it's *entirely* subjective...
I'm not sure about no regrets though, but then it depends on how you define 'regret'. I don't tend dwell onthe past or on the mistakes that I've made as it's part of the learning process, and in any case I feel I've done my best where I can to correct them, or at least alleviate the fallout. To go through life without considering your impact on your environment and the people around you is pretty selfish IMHO and not something that's going to earn you much karma in the long run... *shrugs*
I'm not sure about no regrets though, but then it depends on how you define 'regret'. I don't tend dwell onthe past or on the mistakes that I've made as it's part of the learning process, and in any case I feel I've done my best where I can to correct them, or at least alleviate the fallout. To go through life without considering your impact on your environment and the people around you is pretty selfish IMHO and not something that's going to earn you much karma in the long run... *shrugs*
gixxer1300156949:
????????What If????? Can feelings be matched? Is ones love the same as the other? Questions like this are almost always doomed. Is there such thing as Romeo & Juliet? Its almost as if the relationship had to be tested to the depths of hell to see if its as pure as one would persive. Then, usually one end will lose It's like we all want that person that would die for us and you almost want them to prove it. Life's a bitch! But like you said it's better to regret something you have done than something you haven't done.
It's like we all want that person that would die for us and you almost want them to prove it. Life's a bitch! But like you said it's better to regret something you have done than something you haven't done. Just returned from the most wonderful vacation in France. God, it was so beautiful there- I can't wait to go back. Aside from my liver needing much recovery, I feel much more rejuvinated and peaceful.
The wind's changes are all about and they finally seem to be more growth oriented than destructive. My past is full of heartache and dissappointment....years of tears that I now...
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The wind's changes are all about and they finally seem to be more growth oriented than destructive. My past is full of heartache and dissappointment....years of tears that I now...
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gixxer1300156949:
Thats very sweet....I'm happy for you
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maven_xxi:
1st thanx for adding me as a friend . i see what you mean, and i have felt the same alot befor. but you have such a skill in finding universal truths. its wonderfull reading anything you have wrote. i go though life makeing bad dishions at every point. but i never regret a thing. because i base my dishions on what i think is right at the time. i like talking to you descuing idears with you
. i see what you mean, and i have felt the same alot befor. but you have such a skill in finding universal truths. its wonderfull reading anything you have wrote. i go though life makeing bad dishions at every point. but i never regret a thing. because i base my dishions on what i think is right at the time. i like talking to you descuing idears with you
Though the things that I've been posting lately appear as though I am lost in a state of self-apathy...they make much more sense when the context of their origin is considered. Most of the sad poetry and lyrics revolve around my fleeting sense of self and the dreams I keep having about my father. And now I will include an excerpt from my personal journal....
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gixxer1300156949:
France.......I've been thinking of changing my legal name to Franswaah......j/k sounds like a rip....good for you!
robkarloff:
Cool! Glad you got away and are getting things sorted out. Tres bien!!
Like a feeling that I'm down
Down inside my heart
Like I'm looking out through
Splitting bloodred
Windows in my heart
From a higher up than heaven
And a harder down than stone
Shake the fear that always clawing
Pulls me clawing down alone
As I spitting splitting bloodred
Breaking windows in my heart
And the past is taunting
Fear of ghosts
Is forcing me...
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Down inside my heart
Like I'm looking out through
Splitting bloodred
Windows in my heart
From a higher up than heaven
And a harder down than stone
Shake the fear that always clawing
Pulls me clawing down alone
As I spitting splitting bloodred
Breaking windows in my heart
And the past is taunting
Fear of ghosts
Is forcing me...
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and it's all just bleeding out my brain
spilling into thoughts and mindless clutter....
trying to grasp the intangeable...but all it does is slip through my fingers.
why do we sometimes feel so alone....like the nothing is quickly approaching ready to consume the emptiness that fills us.
sometimes it seems like we spend most of our lives waiting...waiting for something to happen, waiting for things...
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spilling into thoughts and mindless clutter....
trying to grasp the intangeable...but all it does is slip through my fingers.
why do we sometimes feel so alone....like the nothing is quickly approaching ready to consume the emptiness that fills us.
sometimes it seems like we spend most of our lives waiting...waiting for something to happen, waiting for things...
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crackheidi:
I just stepped off, it's not so bad
suicidedoggie:
Here's the thing: You step off, knowing not ignoring or blocking out that there's nothing beneath you, and somehow you find the self belief enough that you don't fall. Some of us fall headlong into the bottomless pit. Some of us fall for a bit, then gradually gain altitude, bobbing up and down as the mood takes us. Some sour into the clouds never to be seen again. And some walk around like there's ground underneath their feet (bastards). The ones to watch out for are the ones who deny that there's *nothing* underneath them. They tend to get a major surprise at some point or another.
It's a mad kind of courage thing we need.
Your studies sound interesting and I know what you mean about wanting to improve the quality of therapy - there are a lot of very bad clinical psychologists and psychotherapists out there. It's a great shame because for most people in need of help it's largely pot luck as to whether they get good or crap help. I always tell potential clients to look around before choosing, if they can.
I don't really specialise but I guess most of my work is around issues of identity/loss of self, anger, depression, and general anxiety. One of the things which seems to underlie most of this work is the willingness/unwillingness to change and the idea that being anything other then you are is somehow fake.
Edit: Inspirations? The people I work with and for, trying to live their lives in spite of it all. Aims and ambitions? I want to write a book or two and grow my practice/centre. I also want to live somewhere where I can take country walks and have dogs. Robert Smith? Yeah, that's him, not me (I want to remain visually anonymous for boring professional reasons.)
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It's a mad kind of courage thing we need.
Your studies sound interesting and I know what you mean about wanting to improve the quality of therapy - there are a lot of very bad clinical psychologists and psychotherapists out there. It's a great shame because for most people in need of help it's largely pot luck as to whether they get good or crap help. I always tell potential clients to look around before choosing, if they can.
I don't really specialise but I guess most of my work is around issues of identity/loss of self, anger, depression, and general anxiety. One of the things which seems to underlie most of this work is the willingness/unwillingness to change and the idea that being anything other then you are is somehow fake.
Edit: Inspirations? The people I work with and for, trying to live their lives in spite of it all. Aims and ambitions? I want to write a book or two and grow my practice/centre. I also want to live somewhere where I can take country walks and have dogs. Robert Smith? Yeah, that's him, not me
(I want to remain visually anonymous for boring professional reasons.)[Edited on Mar 06, 2005 2:43PM]