lonestarforlife

so i buried my mother two days ago and then i had to go and take what i wanted from her place and clean her place out which was just bad cause appearently she had lost control of her body and had to wear diapers and my sister hid this from me cause i am so busy with the marine corps which makes me feel bad cause i didnt know how bad she actually was until she passed away i mean i got to talk to her before she passed away and she died being happy with our relationship but i just feel bad cause i didnt know how much she was actually suffering