Hey everyone, I figure its time to blog again, havent updated in a while. Well to start with im really tired and havent been in the best of moods lately, been pretty down. Im the poster child for life isnt fair and it really sucks. I work towards goals but Im never allowed to achieve them while stupid lazy assholes have shit fall in their laps all the time. I hate life, fuck it all. School is almost over for the semester, yay, but the cycle just continues I only get 6 days off before starting again. Got finals next week which shouold be fun. The only bright spot this semester has been my physics class, I really enjoy it and have learned a lot of neat things in there. Im taking philosophy next semester so that will be fun for me, im into that kind of stuff.
I went to the hospital on monday for my 6 month cancer screening, got radioactive sugar water injected in me thats always fun. I get the results back next monday hopefully its still gone. Ive also been trying to loose some weight and its working, i was 256 about 3 weeks ago and im 238 this morning, thats a plus I guess but got more to go. I didnt eat that well over the weekedn otherwise it might have even been a little better.
Im working on getting all my applications for school finished, got to figure out which university im going to transfer to and where im going to live, thats all fun stuff. I want away from home so bad I cant deal with my moms bulshit aynmore, she treats me like im 5 and need constant supervision. I caught her going through shit in my room the other day, she used the line she was cleaning up for me but I didnt see any trash bags. I seriously think she believes im doing drugs or something. She doesnt understand that I dont want to be like her, she was a drug addict by age 16 dropped out of highschool and had my brother soon after. Im already more succesful than her i got my diploma and will be finished with my AA in a few weeks. Im just tired of her shit and lack of common sense.
On another note im so very lonely. Dont really have anyone to hangout with anymore everyone has moved away. Dont like being alone, I wish I had someone to love on someone to hold. This sucks. When will things look up for me. To top everything off my back is getting pretty sore again, I dont even want to think of what is going wrong there again. That and I hurt my shoulder a month ago, dont know what I did I just know it hurts all day long, but again I dont want to know whats wrong with it im sure its nothing good.
Well this has been a long ranting blog, I need one though, it didnt realy help with anything though. Im off to finish reading some stuff physics class got to be there in 2 hours. Fuck the world its a shitty place.
I went to the hospital on monday for my 6 month cancer screening, got radioactive sugar water injected in me thats always fun. I get the results back next monday hopefully its still gone. Ive also been trying to loose some weight and its working, i was 256 about 3 weeks ago and im 238 this morning, thats a plus I guess but got more to go. I didnt eat that well over the weekedn otherwise it might have even been a little better.
Im working on getting all my applications for school finished, got to figure out which university im going to transfer to and where im going to live, thats all fun stuff. I want away from home so bad I cant deal with my moms bulshit aynmore, she treats me like im 5 and need constant supervision. I caught her going through shit in my room the other day, she used the line she was cleaning up for me but I didnt see any trash bags. I seriously think she believes im doing drugs or something. She doesnt understand that I dont want to be like her, she was a drug addict by age 16 dropped out of highschool and had my brother soon after. Im already more succesful than her i got my diploma and will be finished with my AA in a few weeks. Im just tired of her shit and lack of common sense.
On another note im so very lonely. Dont really have anyone to hangout with anymore everyone has moved away. Dont like being alone, I wish I had someone to love on someone to hold. This sucks. When will things look up for me. To top everything off my back is getting pretty sore again, I dont even want to think of what is going wrong there again. That and I hurt my shoulder a month ago, dont know what I did I just know it hurts all day long, but again I dont want to know whats wrong with it im sure its nothing good.
Well this has been a long ranting blog, I need one though, it didnt realy help with anything though. Im off to finish reading some stuff physics class got to be there in 2 hours. Fuck the world its a shitty place.