Very depressed, right now... I'm glad I have Lord of the Rings Online to distract me from it, else I may collapse under it.
First, an ex. She said she loved me. She claimed to be faithful. Sure, it's past the point where she just mysteriously... "needed some time to think"... but now I found out that about the time she stopped being so lovey was the time she had found someone else. Huh. She accused me of not being trusting enough... funny that I found out that I SHOULDN'T have trusted her.
Second, my game server. I've pretty much lost it. Every online game, these days, focuses on PvP. I hate PvP. I made my server to be completely free of PvP... but apparently, I'm a dying breed. Nobody wants to play in a place where they can't compete with others. I hate competition; I hate sports for that reason. It makes me sick to think that a human can't feel fulfilled unless they've proven they're "better" than someone else at something. So... there goes my creation.
What else can I do, really?
First, an ex. She said she loved me. She claimed to be faithful. Sure, it's past the point where she just mysteriously... "needed some time to think"... but now I found out that about the time she stopped being so lovey was the time she had found someone else. Huh. She accused me of not being trusting enough... funny that I found out that I SHOULDN'T have trusted her.
Second, my game server. I've pretty much lost it. Every online game, these days, focuses on PvP. I hate PvP. I made my server to be completely free of PvP... but apparently, I'm a dying breed. Nobody wants to play in a place where they can't compete with others. I hate competition; I hate sports for that reason. It makes me sick to think that a human can't feel fulfilled unless they've proven they're "better" than someone else at something. So... there goes my creation.
What else can I do, really?
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