I hate fear. I harbor fear in the dumbest ways. I'm not sure it even is fear. It's like having hundeds of little strings tied to my soul, anchoring me to my seat. I want to stand up, and do productive things. My heart is heavy. Not really any particular emotion, but a little of many. except for my wife and babies, I'm totaly on my own. I'm not real good at making or keeping friends. I'm social, but I seem to subtely push people away. That sucks because I want to be part of a close group, a tribe. I don't trust people much anymore, experince. 
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Aw, thank so you very much for the kind words. =] I can completely relate with this post too, btw. Although, I don't have a wife or kids. Just my best friend and my mom. lol.