I've notice after losing a family member this week, how my family and true friends act. I've seen family act like strangers and strangers act like family. I've noticed a lot of things about myself that I hate, and want to change. It is not easy to deal with death on my own, but in the times we live in, only friends are dependable in such cases. I have no GF, and that sucks. Some family is reliable and some family unreliable. It's sad that my friends have called, text, messaged me everyday since the passing. And some of my family, that was in attendance of the burial, didnt even ask how I was, or even say a word to me. It's becoming apparent that I may have to wonder this earth alone and disappointed the rest of my days. Don't look at this post as sympathy cry, its more like bare assessment of reality. Thought of the day: make sure you spend your time with those who you matter to, and not with those who claim to be your so called friends/family. Decide for your self.
