loganmaclaren1

Please, somebody give me the manual for my life!

There is something terrible odd about my life and part of it is the sensation of been watch myself living, instead properly live my life. I is like Linkin Park had wrote "In the end" to talk about my life. Some day of my live just aren't worth of been lived.
Does even matter how hard I try, i the end I get so far that looks like I've never even tried.
Some days I feels like I'm part of the "Fight Club". I worked as a cleaner, as a brick labor, puting tile in houses and apartments, as a waiter... I worked 8, 12, 16, 24 hours in a row, I worked 7 per week, I worked hard... and even though, I'm nothing, with nothing and nobody.
Caming to think about that, my life is pretty sad. I feel like I'm wasting time, like I've always wasted my time. It's like I wasted a lifetime running in the wrong direction.
Besides the money stuff, I'm ok, I think. Good friends, I nice girl (that IS funny: I came to Canada to found I girl, through the internet, in... Brazil!), and a blind hope that, someday, the things will get better.
At least my English has to get better!
XOXOX,
LA