loafie

And I keep on trying,
Smile above the frown,
I'm trying so hard to change,
But they constantly bring me down.

The hurt lies so intense,
The pain won't go away,
I feel like I can't breathe,
As I walk through the days.

I feel so far from good,
Numbness takes over me,
I'm counting down the minutes,
And I don't know where I want to be.

And I just want to run,
To get out of my head,
I want to find myself,
But inside I feel so dead.

And I can't express my feelings,
That lie so deep inside,
I can't get out what's real,
Or show what I hide.

It's hard to find the words,
There's no way to speak,
I feel damaged, silenced,
So fragile and weak.

I cry and it hurts,
And it just kills me more,
I can't seem to escape,
The way I could before.

And I can't find my place,
And I think I've lost my way,
I can't find myself,
So I can make it ok.