lloyd_arcesia

My hearts broken at the moment, I had such a good time last week. Already broken promises. Nothing hurts more then watching some you care about a lot get back into the shit that has taken everything from them, and knowing that if you bitch or try to save them you will just push them to what hurts them. God-I'm too sensitive I wish I didn't care. I want to go play John Wayne, but all I can do is sit here and feel helpless. I've got work tomorrow. All I can do is sit here and listen to Os Mutantes- take a shower, and pray my sleeping pill knocks me out cause it hurts to much to feel like this. I won't play the hero it only makes shit worse. I hate feeling this low. I give her a hug waked away. Didn't say a cruel word, but I'm afraid it may be the last time I see her. I hope things are not as bad as I think they are. ANDO MEIO DESLIGADO- DIA 36-