ULY SEVEN
1. today is my birthday
2. i am 21
3. went to my car this morning and Little had tagged it with chalk paint
i took pictures and i swear i'm not washing it for a week hahaa.
4. got a 85 on my chem test
5. my lab table brought me ice cream cake
6. THE boy called me this morning at 1:30 when he got off work but i missed it (he used the house phone which i keep on silent since i changed my number and didn't give himi the new one). i was surprised when i checked my missed calls this morning....
but what was more shocking was that he facebooked me and asked to buy me a beer after class... ended up hanging out at the house since he had to work at 4 in stockton and i got home to lodi at 230.
i guess he wants to try to be friends. idk. i had butterflies the whole time but i think it's cuz i didn't know what to expect this time. i haven't seen him willingly in SO long... im still not over him but i'm trying. trying hard. he didn't talk about her at all which was very nice of him. he knows i hurt but he won't accept any blame for it, but maybe he's trying to fix us just a little? who knows. he asked to hang out again soon, i told him at his leisure. "you know my number" he said, "i don't have yours." so i debated giving it to him. do i want to start this over again? do i want to give the reason i changed my number, my number? did i go to far? <i>can<i> i handle this? so i told him to email.fb me if he wanted to hang, i'm not ready fory ou to have my number yet. he gave me a big, understanding, loving, affectionate, i miss you hug, and went home.
7. had lunch with one of my girl friends at BJ's. saw this guy i had a minor fling with that works there and he (and/or the barender) bought me a drink which was very nice. except that it was a Blowjob... which was only awkward because it came from him. ah, well...sexual innuendo ensued and i refusedto take it the normal way. i looked him straight in the facae and said "if i'm gonna ake a blowjob from you, i at least get to use my hands... isn't that how you like it anyway?" and he blushed. and i made me happy. and my girlfriend was clueless like the bartender and it made it tat much better. i had two more drinks and she refused to let me pay for anything and picked up the tab. arg, i hate not paying for my own shit. but.. i guess i can let it slide today
JULY EIGHT
8. my dad ended up having to work until 10 last night
so dinner plans changed some. my two best girlfrinds still came by, and we went to the macshack instead of shirasoni. Gaelen is the awesomest waiter i swear... he said happy birthday everytime he came to, and from the table. i had an ultimate bellini which was amazingness... apparently it's just a slushie haha. they put a candle in the bread which got transferred to my drink along with lemons. gaelen sang for me because i didn't want PrissyBitch to be anywhere near me or JoseCanYouSing because he's just awful as fuck. it was sweet of him then we came home and one of them did henna and we watched Stick It. It as a great night!
9. got a text at three/four in the morning from one of my guy friends saying he was drunk and sleeping in his car in front of my house because its the safest place he could think of and could you please wake me up in the morning. goodness... this newly 18-yr old gets drunker than me on my 21st birthday LOL. so i sent him on his way this morning with a water bottle in front of the nosy silent neighbors.
10. class today was boring. came home after and took a nap for a couple hours.
11. Went to shirasoni tonight with dad and his gf, as planned for yesterday haha. it was very yummy, and, including me, there were five birthdays while we were there. free mochi mmmmmmm. had some sake but not much, mostly green tea. Q, our cook, made fun of me.
12. dad made me a pouse cafe tonight... and OMG i've been waiting for SO long for one!!! ive watched him make them since i can remember (like five or six?) and it was well worth the wait. a colorful shot that is seven layers due to density difference, lit on fire, and sucked down through a straw while on fire. hella awesome.
13. and now, i'm just gonna read the last twilight book some more and wait for little to get off work at 9 or 10 so we can hit the gym.
LL is conent.
oh, and today was stress/anxiety free. i didn't have any nightmares like the ones ive been plague with for two months (part alcohol probably). it's amazing that seeing the object of fear actually fixes things? ive been trying to avoid him, trying not to think of him, planning where i go according to where he might or may not be andto see and just chill like nothing ever went wrong kinda... was refreshing in a way. i feel like i was just overreacting and everythings okay now (it's not but,still). it feels good to relax.
1. today is my birthday
2. i am 21
3. went to my car this morning and Little had tagged it with chalk paint
i took pictures and i swear i'm not washing it for a week hahaa.
4. got a 85 on my chem test
5. my lab table brought me ice cream cake
6. THE boy called me this morning at 1:30 when he got off work but i missed it (he used the house phone which i keep on silent since i changed my number and didn't give himi the new one). i was surprised when i checked my missed calls this morning....
but what was more shocking was that he facebooked me and asked to buy me a beer after class... ended up hanging out at the house since he had to work at 4 in stockton and i got home to lodi at 230.
i guess he wants to try to be friends. idk. i had butterflies the whole time but i think it's cuz i didn't know what to expect this time. i haven't seen him willingly in SO long... im still not over him but i'm trying. trying hard. he didn't talk about her at all which was very nice of him. he knows i hurt but he won't accept any blame for it, but maybe he's trying to fix us just a little? who knows. he asked to hang out again soon, i told him at his leisure. "you know my number" he said, "i don't have yours." so i debated giving it to him. do i want to start this over again? do i want to give the reason i changed my number, my number? did i go to far? <i>can<i> i handle this? so i told him to email.fb me if he wanted to hang, i'm not ready fory ou to have my number yet. he gave me a big, understanding, loving, affectionate, i miss you hug, and went home.
7. had lunch with one of my girl friends at BJ's. saw this guy i had a minor fling with that works there and he (and/or the barender) bought me a drink which was very nice. except that it was a Blowjob... which was only awkward because it came from him. ah, well...sexual innuendo ensued and i refusedto take it the normal way. i looked him straight in the facae and said "if i'm gonna ake a blowjob from you, i at least get to use my hands... isn't that how you like it anyway?" and he blushed. and i made me happy. and my girlfriend was clueless like the bartender and it made it tat much better. i had two more drinks and she refused to let me pay for anything and picked up the tab. arg, i hate not paying for my own shit. but.. i guess i can let it slide today
JULY EIGHT
8. my dad ended up having to work until 10 last night
so dinner plans changed some. my two best girlfrinds still came by, and we went to the macshack instead of shirasoni. Gaelen is the awesomest waiter i swear... he said happy birthday everytime he came to, and from the table. i had an ultimate bellini which was amazingness... apparently it's just a slushie haha. they put a candle in the bread which got transferred to my drink along with lemons. gaelen sang for me because i didn't want PrissyBitch to be anywhere near me or JoseCanYouSing because he's just awful as fuck. it was sweet of him then we came home and one of them did henna and we watched Stick It. It as a great night!
9. got a text at three/four in the morning from one of my guy friends saying he was drunk and sleeping in his car in front of my house because its the safest place he could think of and could you please wake me up in the morning. goodness... this newly 18-yr old gets drunker than me on my 21st birthday LOL. so i sent him on his way this morning with a water bottle in front of the nosy silent neighbors.
10. class today was boring. came home after and took a nap for a couple hours.
11. Went to shirasoni tonight with dad and his gf, as planned for yesterday haha. it was very yummy, and, including me, there were five birthdays while we were there. free mochi mmmmmmm. had some sake but not much, mostly green tea. Q, our cook, made fun of me.
12. dad made me a pouse cafe tonight... and OMG i've been waiting for SO long for one!!! ive watched him make them since i can remember (like five or six?) and it was well worth the wait. a colorful shot that is seven layers due to density difference, lit on fire, and sucked down through a straw while on fire. hella awesome.
13. and now, i'm just gonna read the last twilight book some more and wait for little to get off work at 9 or 10 so we can hit the gym.
LL is conent.
oh, and today was stress/anxiety free. i didn't have any nightmares like the ones ive been plague with for two months (part alcohol probably). it's amazing that seeing the object of fear actually fixes things? ive been trying to avoid him, trying not to think of him, planning where i go according to where he might or may not be andto see and just chill like nothing ever went wrong kinda... was refreshing in a way. i feel like i was just overreacting and everythings okay now (it's not but,still). it feels good to relax.
There was a letter to the editor in the Post a few weeks back complaining that Twilight is the favorite book of college students. I did not understand this. I never read Plato for fun. You need escapes, and reading fiction of fun is a good one. We all read Tom Clancy back in the day, though my favorite was Clavel's Tai-Pan. My copy of Twilight has discussion questions.
I had no interest in Twilight, since it was panned in the reviews on Amazon. Probably Buffy fans like me. Then a beautiful woman told me to read it, and my policy is do whatever a beautiful women tells me to do, so I picked up a copy and read it, and did not think much of it. I picked up New Moon right before I left for Cabo in May, but did not have a chance to read it, since I was so busy defusing the land mines between my mother and Aisha. When I did, I really liked it. I understood exactly where Bella was coming from, perhaps because I had been dumped like that, and it took me literal years to recover and start dating again. I will probably pick up the third book this week or next.