I'm in Missouri now. Living with my mom and her husband, Bob until I get on my feet. I have a decent job and semi-reliable transportation. However I feel less stable than ever. My life is like a balloon a little kid let go of and now I'm waiting to pop or float off in the horizon.
My realtionship is so screwed right now. I began this with the idea in my head that if the person I'm involved with wanted an open realtionship I'd be okay with that. But three years have gone by and now he wants to be with someone else and my feelings have changed. We were talking marriage and I want comittment but he's like "what the hell? You said that this would be okay" But it's not. Now he doesn't even want to get married. I can't handle how much pain I'm in. Everyone just keeps telling me to do whatever I think is best for myself. I don't know what that is.
My realtionship is so screwed right now. I began this with the idea in my head that if the person I'm involved with wanted an open realtionship I'd be okay with that. But three years have gone by and now he wants to be with someone else and my feelings have changed. We were talking marriage and I want comittment but he's like "what the hell? You said that this would be okay" But it's not. Now he doesn't even want to get married. I can't handle how much pain I'm in. Everyone just keeps telling me to do whatever I think is best for myself. I don't know what that is.