Well the fuckers at work have officially moved me. I was sick on Friday so they took everything out of my desk and just threw it around. Well thank you fucking assholes! It's totally fucked up but now I have to be a receptionist and sit around and answer fucking phones all day. Which might be fine if I wasn't stuck up here with 45 year olds listening to oldies, trying to get ooodles of typing done for the newspaper, proofing my ooodles of typing and IF I DIDN'T HAVE A FEAR OF ANSWERING PHONES AND TALKING TO COMPLETE STRANGERS!! Honestly that is my problem. I have so much anxiety about answering these fucking phones that I just want to bawl. This job was honestly perfect for me. It was absolutely-fucking-perfect....Till now. Now I don't know what to do, and every time I hear the phone ring, I feel like I'm gonna puke.
Everyone go greet quidam, my other roomie. He is cool as hell and the love of my fucking life...even though the feelings are not reciprocated. I am going absolutly crazy with emotions lately. Those of you who have kept up with my journal know my situation with my roomie/ex boyfriend. You know how the whole affection situation was, how I chated on him and hurt him, how I realize now that I was so fucked up that it was the biggest mistake of my life, and how he doesn't want to be with me right now and that makes me want to slit my throat.
Honestly, we were riding on his bike the other day and I realized that I really do love him, and being without him would honestly kill me. What do I do with that? What do you do with that type of emotion? God between work and this I am going absolutely nuts.
But either way, go greet him and make him feel oh so welcome.
Everyone go greet quidam, my other roomie. He is cool as hell and the love of my fucking life...even though the feelings are not reciprocated. I am going absolutly crazy with emotions lately. Those of you who have kept up with my journal know my situation with my roomie/ex boyfriend. You know how the whole affection situation was, how I chated on him and hurt him, how I realize now that I was so fucked up that it was the biggest mistake of my life, and how he doesn't want to be with me right now and that makes me want to slit my throat.
Honestly, we were riding on his bike the other day and I realized that I really do love him, and being without him would honestly kill me. What do I do with that? What do you do with that type of emotion? God between work and this I am going absolutely nuts.
But either way, go greet him and make him feel oh so welcome.
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Sticking with a job when it turns to something you hate....
Still in love with someone that doesnt love back...(not saying anything bad about him though....he actually seems pretty cool. but the situation doenst help you
I really think that you just need to get a fresh start. You obviously got some skill to have the job you had....maybe find the same kind of job in another area