liz_marie1222

I work at a weekly newspaper, and Tuesdays are deadline days, so I always end up working uber late because I am in the classified ad dept. (the only one I might add) and everyone thinks it's cool to wait until Tuesday at 5:00 p.m. (absolute deadline) to bring their shit in. So I end up being here from 7:30 in the morning to 8:30 at night. But then the rest of the week I don't have much to do, so I am able to leave early,it's not that bad, Tuesdays are just shitty.

So, I haven't really been up to much lately. We are moving into a new apt. with a new roomie! I am going w/my current roomie/ex boyfriend of 5 years, and we are moving into a three bedroom with my friend Amber. I know it sounds weird that I'm still living with my ex, but we really are like the best of friends, if that's at all possible. I can imagine my life without sleeping with him, without marrying him, without doing all the shit that couples do, but not without being able to talk to him, confide in him, party with him, etc. So we are still roomies and it's going well. We get along a lot better with out that label and the expectation of romantic interest.

I'm sorry, I can't help it. I want to go out with Eric (the asshole fuck buddy I previously wrote about). Honestly, he is such a sweetie to me most of the time. He has his asshole moments though, and he apologized profusely for it, and surprisingly hasn't done it to me since. I know, I love being a doormat, which is totally evident by my actions. But I can't help it.

However, I know he doesn't want a relationship with me, so I guess I should just stop doing intimate things with him all together. It just confuses me. I know I am a pathetic human being that can't keep the lines of friendship solid, but whatever.

It's starting again, I am beginning to skip work more and more. I don't know why, I just reach a certain point at a job (usually 3 months) and then I just get totally sick of it, and depressed even more so than I already am, and I just want to skip work all the time to sleep in my bed all day. It's pathetic I know, but I am trying to avoid it. Really, I am. Today I got up and desperately wanted to stay home, but since I called in yesterday, I got up, took a shower, and brought my ass here. So that's one accomplishment for today HEE HEE..at least I'm being optimistic.

Some fucking asshole parked at a 90 degree angle to my car yesterday fucking morning. They were touching my car they were so fucking close and they left a lovely dent and chipped my paint and scratched my door in various places...Fucking Assholes. There was absolutely no reason for them to park that way, it made no sense to me at all. Me being the dumbfuck I am,didn't get their license plate no. before they left. Fuckers.

Has anyone heard from PullOffMyWings? She was supposed to contact me somehow when she got to Cali and she hasn't at all, and frankly I'm a little worried. That and I miss her.

So I ran into this guy that I kinda had a group sex encounter with, that I totally had a crush on last year in Biology, that is pierced and pretty hot, last Saturday. He was all excited to see me, in the "I haven't gotten sex in a while and considering the circumstances we met" way. So he took my number, said we would "finish what we started." and has been calling me a couple times. I mean I used to have a crush on him, but now that's gone, and I get really anxious and weird when I meet new people. So I have ignored his calls...oops...He makes me feel nervous and akward, and I feel that since we met the way we did, and the way he spoke to me, that his only real interest is sex, and I just don't feel like getting into that or dealing with that. So I haven't hung out with him at all, and I feel a tid bad. Because I'm sure he's a nice guy??? WTVR.

So I'm wasting time at work...oops....I should go...

You know what? I haven't heard much from peeps lately. What's been up? Give me the latest update on your life? Have a Sig. Other, how's it going with them? Where do you work and how has your job been? Going to school? What for? How long till you are done? Anything interesting happening lately....I know most of you peeps put all this in your journal...but not all....let me know whats up with you....

Have a wonderful Thursday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!