liz_marie1222

Wow, I spend so much time on here while I'm at work, however since ppl can see my computer I have to skip everything with pictures...grrr...

Put hot pink streaks in my hair on Saturday...I fucking love it, it's hot....I went to a party that night and I was wearing a hot pink shirt to match my hair, they had black lights on all over and I-was-a-glowin!!! Yay, hot pink hair glows...

I don't know what to do about boy situations....I know that tons of people have given me advice and told me to dump J...but I just can't. For a few reasons 1) I don't have the courage to be alone 2) I love him so much...seriously, I can't imagine my life with out him. 3) I honestly still get butterflies when I get to see him sometimes. 4) He has me on his little string and he's just yanking me around like a little puppet and I am unable to find the knots to untie myself.

So, been hanging out w/my ex-fuck buddy lately....ewwwww I'M SUCH A NERDO!! He has totally explained to me over and over and over again how the most we could ever be is fuck buddies..but I can't help it, since J. is just jerking me around I want some affection so I want to cuddle the little fucker and call him my own. He is still crazily obsessed with this chick that doesn't even give him the time of day, and does not appreciate let alone acknowledge all of his efforts. Everytime I tell him what she is doing to him he get's totally pissed off at me. He even stopped speaking to me last week b/c she said she knew something she didn't like so he assumed I told her we (him and I) were fucking. WTF! I didn't tell that bitch anything. I mean I know she doesn't like him, and I do, but that doesn't mean I'm going to be a psycho bitch and totally wreck everything for him. I mean what kind of friend does he think I am?

Maybe I just have something for men that walk all over me. But they walk all over me yet they are so sweet.

I need to get out...I need to pick up and move away from everyone and just start over....but I'm too much of a scared little pussy!

Gabby, If you are out there, I know you and Jarred are living happily ever after..but if at all possible, please come help your belated bestest bud get through life for a couple days...