livingdeadkirst

hhrrmmm...let me see.

well NZ trip is off. totally can't afford what the girls want to do and i really don't want to have to be jealous and look on while they do all the cool stuff and i'm stuck minding the bags. so going to organise with my sister and we will go next year around this time. that way we can both start saving now and do some awesome stuff like bungee jumping and sky diving

however instead of NZ'ing i'm thinking i might just take a trip somewhere and go catch up with some people and stuff. have some fun and just do whatever. go to brisbane, sydney and maybe melbourne or something. who knows. will probably go in october sometime so have a little time to plan

spoke to my dad for the first time in a long time yesterday. he totally still annoys the crap out of me and it just seems that he is trying to make an effort with me and my sister now because he has just split from his long term girlfriend. but for now i will be nice. however...i don't think it will be long before he finds out how much i have changed and how i don't take shit from anyone.

not much else happening. i'm an ebay bitch at the moment! damn my housemate for getting me addicted! i totally blame her...lol.

everything is still crap and i'm totally not sticking to my healthy eating. i hate myself so much for it and wish i had the willpower. i don't want to be like this anymore so why can't i just stick with it..? damn stupidness.

anyways hope you are all doing well.
take care
kirst