have you ever felt like you are on this earth for particularly no reason..? i think about this a lot. all i feel like i ever do is go to work, come home, go to sleep, wake up, go to work, come home, go to sleep, wake up, go to work...you get the picture. i really feel no purpose to my life.
i don't share anything with friends as i don't have many friends in rocky. the two people who i do actually do stuff with which is about once every one to two months, both are mainly friends that i go and have a bitch with. one friend we just talk about shit...the other talks about herself. i love them both to death but yeh...i don't have a circle of friends who are a social bunch.
i sometimes feel that because i fucked up when i was in highschool and didn't have many friends (pushed them away and also broke a lot of friendships and also didn't let any new friendships be created) i've pretty much screwed what chances there are of having the circle of friends that i've always wanted. every group that i've met or been introduced to have their own things and no matter how much you try to fit in you just never do. they aren't your friends from the start so you are kinda moving in on their territory.
i know you make friends and stuff like that...i'm not saying that i will never do it...but these are just thoughts that go through my head. pretty much if you don't make friends or establish a friend circle when your young you really have hard times ahead when you get older. it is much harder to meet people especially when you don't have the social interaction of school.
i don't share anything with a partner as i don't have one. and this is probably more difficult to find than friends. because you become friends first then you discover that you like each other more than friends and bla bla bla. plus you have to know people to meet people who could become a potential partner.
i dunno...that isn't all the reasons why i think i have no purpose...there are a lot of things. i just don't seem to do anything...no purpose...no meaning...no nothing. i'm just in existance to take up space. i guess when i read it back it is pretty negative (oh how i hate that word) but these are my thoughts.
really that makes no sense....man i have some weird thoughts in my head.
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kirst
i don't share anything with friends as i don't have many friends in rocky. the two people who i do actually do stuff with which is about once every one to two months, both are mainly friends that i go and have a bitch with. one friend we just talk about shit...the other talks about herself. i love them both to death but yeh...i don't have a circle of friends who are a social bunch.
i sometimes feel that because i fucked up when i was in highschool and didn't have many friends (pushed them away and also broke a lot of friendships and also didn't let any new friendships be created) i've pretty much screwed what chances there are of having the circle of friends that i've always wanted. every group that i've met or been introduced to have their own things and no matter how much you try to fit in you just never do. they aren't your friends from the start so you are kinda moving in on their territory.
i know you make friends and stuff like that...i'm not saying that i will never do it...but these are just thoughts that go through my head. pretty much if you don't make friends or establish a friend circle when your young you really have hard times ahead when you get older. it is much harder to meet people especially when you don't have the social interaction of school.
i don't share anything with a partner as i don't have one. and this is probably more difficult to find than friends. because you become friends first then you discover that you like each other more than friends and bla bla bla. plus you have to know people to meet people who could become a potential partner.
i dunno...that isn't all the reasons why i think i have no purpose...there are a lot of things. i just don't seem to do anything...no purpose...no meaning...no nothing. i'm just in existance to take up space. i guess when i read it back it is pretty negative (oh how i hate that word) but these are my thoughts.
really that makes no sense....man i have some weird thoughts in my head.
laters
kirst
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starcandy:
Hey sweeite I was cleaing out my bookmarks and I must of accidently deleted you as a friend too coz I had you down as interesting first. I've sent you another request. 
platypuz:
hey ya hon, glad ya feeling better now,i have made some mistakes & stuff also,i have been known to push people who love m away..inc my soulmate,dunno why,maybe im insecure..meh..anyway ya not alone in this respect,we love ya