it is now 11:09pm and i can't sleep...ggrrrr. not feeling as crappy as earlier tonite. shit off that i can't sleep cause i have work tomorrow but i know it is only cause i feel shit and letting my mind think about things and people that i shouldn't be 
i'm so tired but yet convince myself i'm not....ggrrrr. anyway...off to try try again....
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ugh! back to work...joy of joy's.
man i feel like crap. i feel myself starting to slip into depression again....argh! it is like being on a slippery dip...you can stop yourself for a little while but you still end up at the bottom. ugh....so crap. and now i feel like a stupid dick for writing about it. bleh.....enough now.
laters
i'm so tired but yet convince myself i'm not....ggrrrr. anyway...off to try try again....
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ugh! back to work...joy of joy's.
man i feel like crap. i feel myself starting to slip into depression again....argh! it is like being on a slippery dip...you can stop yourself for a little while but you still end up at the bottom. ugh....so crap. and now i feel like a stupid dick for writing about it. bleh.....enough now.
laters
masochristic:
Yes, depression is like a slippery slope. Easy to fall down into, but hard to get back up out of. Good analogy, Thanks for the comment too. 
jimee:
know how you feel. You'll feel better, just give it some time.