WHY IM A BIG FUCKING ASSHOLE/IDIOT (i.e.: top 10 reasons why i should go hang myself almost!)
ok so about 2 nights ago, i discovered an already week old email asking me to be in the next SG magazine issue. This email detailed the fact that, since i read it a week late, i only had about a week and a half to get a buncha stuff together. now I was going to post about it cuz i was like "cool i can surprise everyone by being in it" and i was never so excited in my life and it felt so good that based on a debut set, the response has been good enough to be featured in their magazine *blah blah blah*...
so anyways. one of the requirements was to send 'candid' photos of me. the catch: no one else could be in the picture unless it was another suicidegirl. Then i start panicing because i have no such pictures. DO NOT FRET THOUGH, I HAVE AN IDEA!!!
as you know, last night i celebrated my birthday, thus i though 'what better an opportunity to get pictures of me, plus of me + my favorite/best SG buddy Tao (among other queued new SGs). So i brought my camera to my friends to get ready and I FUCKING FORGOT IT THERE. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.
bloody jesus. i have never wanted to shoot myself anymore than the moment i reached for my camera and my purse was empty. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck.
Summary: i have no pictures, thus i can send no package and any pictures i take now will have absolutely no time to get to said destination by deadline, therefore LITARAYE SUICIDE FAILS AT LIFE.
sending the email saying i regret to decline the offer was actually the worst thing ive had to do this year. i want to cry.
hopefully ill get the offer again for the next issue...something tells me these offers dont come around so often.
ugh.
ok so about 2 nights ago, i discovered an already week old email asking me to be in the next SG magazine issue. This email detailed the fact that, since i read it a week late, i only had about a week and a half to get a buncha stuff together. now I was going to post about it cuz i was like "cool i can surprise everyone by being in it" and i was never so excited in my life and it felt so good that based on a debut set, the response has been good enough to be featured in their magazine *blah blah blah*...
so anyways. one of the requirements was to send 'candid' photos of me. the catch: no one else could be in the picture unless it was another suicidegirl. Then i start panicing because i have no such pictures. DO NOT FRET THOUGH, I HAVE AN IDEA!!!
as you know, last night i celebrated my birthday, thus i though 'what better an opportunity to get pictures of me, plus of me + my favorite/best SG buddy Tao (among other queued new SGs). So i brought my camera to my friends to get ready and I FUCKING FORGOT IT THERE. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.
bloody jesus. i have never wanted to shoot myself anymore than the moment i reached for my camera and my purse was empty. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck.
Summary: i have no pictures, thus i can send no package and any pictures i take now will have absolutely no time to get to said destination by deadline, therefore LITARAYE SUICIDE FAILS AT LIFE.
sending the email saying i regret to decline the offer was actually the worst thing ive had to do this year. i want to cry.
hopefully ill get the offer again for the next issue...something tells me these offers dont come around so often.
ugh.
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i cant beleive how stupid i was though. seriously. AH!.