so things have been going ok actually. i'm feeling pretty good about work and i've accepted and resolved a situation with the girl. So i'm actually maybe not all that miserable right now. Whether thats because of something I've done or the anti-depressants are finally kicking in who knows? Had a day off today so just lazed around wasting it doing nothing but lying in...
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and so the saga continues. She knows she's sending me mixed signals and said she's going to stop. then straight away signs out of msn before we can actually carry on the conversation. which is what she always does when the topic of conversation turns to something serious. Proper pisses me off. Grr. Why can't people just have a normal, sensible civil discussion about stuff...
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l1vingdeadgurl:
Thanks for the comment. I dont think its bi polar though. I am pretty sure its bpd as I dont have the long term mood swings that bi polar sufferers do. Someone said to me "life is a hell of a thing to happen to you" and though I think its true, its not bad forever. I am working on picking myself up out of a hole of self abuse and loathing I put myself in. You will be stronger when you come out of it. Keep you head up darling 
well fuck me this has been a day of ups and downs. Work was awesome, I did real well everything went smoothly and have a laugh with the guys there (despite being wound up a treat) it's getting to the point where i feel some of them want to have genuine conversations rather than just dicking about but don't know how to talk seriously about...
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l1vingdeadgurl:
We never do know - I've heard somewhere " life is a hell of a thing to happen to a person"
I tend to agree, though I think love is a worse thing to happen. Yes I'm very pessimistic :p
I tend to agree, though I think love is a worse thing to happen. Yes I'm very pessimistic :p
l1vingdeadgurl:
Haha thanks
ok i mostly use this blog because nobody i know reads it. In fact I don't think anybody reads it so thats why it's usually so whiney.
The thing I mentioned with that girl? Well that's over now. It was complicated situation to begin with and I knew this was probably how it was going end, but it still sucks that it does. I thought...
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The thing I mentioned with that girl? Well that's over now. It was complicated situation to begin with and I knew this was probably how it was going end, but it still sucks that it does. I thought...
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l1vingdeadgurl:
Hey I read you blog so here is 1 person 
It sucks about the girl, and I can totally empathize. Depression creeps in usually unnoticed, so try to keep around people if you can.
That's an awesome song by the way.
It sucks about the girl, and I can totally empathize. Depression creeps in usually unnoticed, so try to keep around people if you can.
That's an awesome song by the way.
scrap the point about being led on by the girl. I don't think I am at all. It's awesome. Not to sound cheesy but she actually makes me really happy. It's awesome.
Also I finally ordered my phone from work. No longer will I be mocked for having a nokia 2630. I shall soon have a HTC desire! Which will be awesome. I love that...
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Also I finally ordered my phone from work. No longer will I be mocked for having a nokia 2630. I shall soon have a HTC desire! Which will be awesome. I love that...
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woo i finally got into SGUK! Thanks to Snowy for vouching for me, much appreciated. Hopefully i'll be able to make a contribution and use this site a bit more now.
on a my usual bum notes i add to my blog i:
- am now on anti-depressants
- have been completely led on by this girl
- have had my hours slashed at work...
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on a my usual bum notes i add to my blog i:
- am now on anti-depressants
- have been completely led on by this girl
- have had my hours slashed at work...
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jsnbourne7:
Cool song dude...Shutter Island was brilliant, wasn't it?
hello avid readers (and the not so avid ones)
so basically i have done nothing but work really. which led to quite a nice payday on friday but i'm itching to get out and party hard and meet some new people. it's kinda crazy that in a job where i basically talk to people all day, all i want to do is go out and...
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so basically i have done nothing but work really. which led to quite a nice payday on friday but i'm itching to get out and party hard and meet some new people. it's kinda crazy that in a job where i basically talk to people all day, all i want to do is go out and...
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snowy:
Go out and party hard! Just think for one night you're not going to be your shy self and go nuts (I've done this before!)
And I still haven't seen Scott Pilgrim... I shall have to force myself to the cinema
And I still haven't seen Scott Pilgrim... I shall have to force myself to the cinema
Hello again
Anyone got any suggestions as to good groups to join on here? As part of trying to get more involved in the site I think i should try and join in and contribute to some more groups. anything else music, movie, tv etc. or just anything really. much appreciated.
also anyone find it difficult making friends and talking to new people on here?...
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Anyone got any suggestions as to good groups to join on here? As part of trying to get more involved in the site I think i should try and join in and contribute to some more groups. anything else music, movie, tv etc. or just anything really. much appreciated.
also anyone find it difficult making friends and talking to new people on here?...
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snowy:
Haha, not a contortionist (alas!) but I guess I'm quite small and can fit through small things! At school I could fit through the fence and a teacher once saw me and was astonished. Hahah! I don't think he realised there was a bit of the fence that was winder than the rest. Buhaha...
Soooo what do you have planned for this week then?
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Soooo what do you have planned for this week then?
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snowy:
I've never seen Mad Men but there was a huge article in the Guardian about how amazing it was I might just have to start from the beginning. I'm going away tomorrow with an old collegue of mine for a week which'll be nice, and I'm trying to survive to day without any water - there was a burst water main in my area and thus means no cups of tea..! NO TEA! How am I going to survive, I don't know 
If I don't have a chance to talk to you before I go have a good week
x
I might just have to start from the beginning. I'm going away tomorrow with an old collegue of mine for a week which'll be nice, and I'm trying to survive to day without any water - there was a burst water main in my area and thus means no cups of tea..! NO TEA! How am I going to survive, I don't know If I don't have a chance to talk to you before I go have a good week x
hello anyone who comes across this blog. I am back. Not that I ever really went away. I've been checking out new sets but that about it. I've just moved back home and there is actually nothing to do here. Did I make a mistake moving back? quite possibly yes. although staying where I was might not have been much either. But anywho is does...
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heartbaker:
Welcome back
gosh its been a while. not that anybodys really reading anyway...
basically i've been busy, working 2 jobs, both part time that don't even add together to make full time hours. But i've been doing overtime cleaning involving 6.15am starts. so i basically get up, work, go back to sleep, get up, eat, go to work, eat sleep, repeat monday-friday. then do a normal days...
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basically i've been busy, working 2 jobs, both part time that don't even add together to make full time hours. But i've been doing overtime cleaning involving 6.15am starts. so i basically get up, work, go back to sleep, get up, eat, go to work, eat sleep, repeat monday-friday. then do a normal days...
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This week has been getting better as it goes along! (Other than the whole grandparents going in and out of hospital situation)
Firstly I got myself another job. Its just weekends at Orange mobile phone shop, but it'll more than double my income so thats always good. Hopefully get a chance to conquer nerves and all that as well. Also in what I am finding...
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Firstly I got myself another job. Its just weekends at Orange mobile phone shop, but it'll more than double my income so thats always good. Hopefully get a chance to conquer nerves and all that as well. Also in what I am finding...
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ah hello there. its been a while. i've had this open everyday just not really been using it.
Still doing a shit job not earning enough money. still occasionally going out and dancing like a dick head.
Now however both my grandparents are in hospital. My Nana has stomach problems in addition to the breathing problems she's had for years and a burnt hand. My...
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Still doing a shit job not earning enough money. still occasionally going out and dancing like a dick head.
Now however both my grandparents are in hospital. My Nana has stomach problems in addition to the breathing problems she's had for years and a burnt hand. My...
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blackdahlia:
well im glad you started bloggin again
i was startinto get worried
i was startinto get worried
I am glad you are getting better, its not easy I know that.