lisamarie

a really good friend came back from college. one of my best friends from high school. we had a "thing" last summer but you know..it never happened. i guess because he was going away to college and it would have been pointless. he went off to college. we saw each other here and there when he came back for breaks. he came back for good in may. he dropped out and we instantly clicked. we were instantly all over each other. for a month or so we were taking it steady...seeing where things would go before we started dating. we ended up dating. and it just ended tuesday. we agreed to be friends. everyone knows that doesn't happen. he came over tonight and told me flat out it wouldn't work. why? we were just in baltimore on friday holding hands...having fun. last night we were talking on the phone like nothing happened...along with texting all day today and night. at least til he came over. so yea...i went to hang out with one of his friends who flirts with me a lot. it probably pissed him off but whatever. there was this guy that was in our little "crew" and we were all best friends. we had a falling out in june..mostly him and my ex. i look on his myspace and the night we broke up he's friends with all of them again. yeah, myspace is the new whatever...but to remove me completely from everything? part of me says i shouldn't be so upset but maybe he's hiding it well. it's like he did a 360 change within a weekend. i'm upset. i don't like crying. i dropped all of my friends for him and now where am i? stuck here. i plan on writing something out to him. he doesn't need to respond because to be honest, i don't want to be friends or have anything to do with him. i don't feel like giving him his stuff back so he can get it if he wants. as long as i don't have to see him. it's amazing how you feel so right for each other....especially two weeks ago he told me he loved me. people change. i've been with four boys in my life and each one has screwed me over. maybe it's me? maybe not. maybe i'm not meant to date. who knows...i'm done at the moment. focus on hair school. and be calm. sounds good to me.

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