liquidsmooch

One More Time

An arch of the back, a slide of a hand
A whisper in the ear, a tounge on the flesh.
I'm in this place again, I've been here many times before.
Nothing's wrong but nothing's right.
I just need a little bit, just enough to get me by
Until I fall into someone far away.
Even with the pain, I'll be alright
This substance in these capsules helps me control these urges before they get the best of me.
The little white shadows are part of this system to keep me sane.
A knock on my door, he's here again, my number 1
The one who plays the part of lover
The one who makes me pay the price for his attention.
I get what I want but its not what I need.
The shape my body takes as I lie face down
And wait for him to hold me close.
The closeness I crave leaves me shuddering for days.
I'm choking, swallowing, gasping,
The last slice of innocence has been bruised, broken beyond repair.
I close my eyes, kill the lights, I'm so tired but I can't sleep.
I try to repair this damage I've caused, to undo this hurt, to heal these bruises.
I find my elixir, it coats my soul and all is right with the universe for tonight.

Please feel free to comment ~ I posted in the poetry group as well.

Caroline