liquidsmooch

Hey all ~ I just wanted to say thanks to everyone who has stopped by and left me comments and friend requests. I am posting a poem that I have also posted in the poetry group. I hope everyone has a great weekend as I will be in Columbus, OH visiting relatives for the Easter holiday ~ fun, fun!

Avalanche

I am choking, I am scared
I hear a scream, I can't place its origin
Until a hand covers my mouth and cuts me off.
I'm gasping...
It isn't until I can taste the saltiness of my tears
That I feel the stream of them running down my face.
I'm losing something I can't replace
But I can't stop this loss.
He started this snowball rolling
It created an avalanche that crushed my very being.
I slide into a parallel universe that is dark, black.
Suffocation.
My core is empty.
My heart beats a lifeless pulse.
I don't feel, I can't feel, I won't feel.
I refuse to give in, to him, to give him what he wants.
He takes it anyway.
With a rip of my shirt,
A fist to my face.
A thrust.
I want to be found, fixed.
For I am eternally lost and broken.
It's in my mind somewhere
Lurking, daring me to remember, to recall what it was like to feel.
I can't let it control me, I can't let it take over.
But I fear it already has...