Ever have one of those strange epiphonies that suddenly puts large swaths of your life into focus? The kind that makes you so uncomfortable with yourself that you wish you could crawl out of your own skin? I had one of those about a week ago and I wish it had stayed just beyond my peripheral vision. An ache that you can ignore because you...
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thorn2:
what's TMI??
thorn2:
Oooh - TMI - ok, I get it. Nope, didn't get your email. Try again - I know it has worked in the past with other members.
Hey there, poo-pee heads! I'm still alive, if only barely. Just thought you might want to know. The other day I landed myself in the emergency room. It started with nausea then I lost sensation in my hands and feet, followed by my forarms and lower legs until my I could not move my limbs at all. My hands were cramped up in this weird...
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tororo:
Hi again!
How are you now?
How are you now?
tororo:
Some years ago I, as well, would have felt lost without my sanity pills.
I quited having them 2 years ago and, slowly, but surely, the world began to become an interesting place again.
"give me life, give me pain, give me myself again"
Tori Amos "Little Earthquakes"
I quited having them 2 years ago and, slowly, but surely, the world began to become an interesting place again.
"give me life, give me pain, give me myself again"
Tori Amos "Little Earthquakes"
I'm lonely. Depression does that to a body. I've found that it's not always such an awful feeling if you can tolerate it and face it down. When you run away from it it chases you down with the ferocity of a jungle cat but it can also be sweet like the company of a treasured friend. Lonliness has a different quality than it used...
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quiescence:
Acceptance of emotion, and all the unpleasantness it can sometimes bring, is a rare and wonderful thing. I know from personal experience and by helping friends that depression is a terrible millstone to wear. It seems as though you've found a way to carry it with acceptance and dignity. Congratulations and best wishes. I hope that all goes well for you soon.
tororo:
Hi lionboy!
When I read some time ago this post you related a dream in, I thought it was better not to suggest an interpretation, I agree with the freudian idea that it's better for every person to "dig" their own dream's -or fantasm's- interpretations, than be suggested one.....but now, reading your present entry, I feel like you were speaking of the same things in different words.
When I read some time ago this post you related a dream in, I thought it was better not to suggest an interpretation, I agree with the freudian idea that it's better for every person to "dig" their own dream's -or fantasm's- interpretations, than be suggested one.....but now, reading your present entry, I feel like you were speaking of the same things in different words.
OK so I finally made it to Cleveland. My 
was extremely good on the way and I discovered that he has the most incredible bladder control I've ever witnessed. He held it for 12 hours straight! 
So anyway, everything's going fine so far except one of my best friends in the world is going koo-koo on her new medication. I would never have described her...
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was extremely good on the way and I discovered that he has the most incredible bladder control I've ever witnessed. He held it for 12 hours straight! So anyway, everything's going fine so far except one of my best friends in the world is going koo-koo on her new medication. I would never have described her... Read More
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emily:
I cant have a cat where I live..sux.BUT when I move ..I'm gonna get one!
desilou:
hello... sorry about your friend and her medication, i hope everything works out... thanks for the kind words in my journal... shoujoai is girl/girl love in jap. anime...
take care
d
take care
d
I'm all hopped up on da goofballs! Wheeeheheheeeeee! Horse Nipple Chips on RYE BREEEEEAAAAAD! I'm moving a third of the way across the country tomorrow morning soI will not be online for a few days until I can get my phone service working. I'm moving with my but I'm not 
. I'm ready to go even though this is the first time I will have...
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thorn2:
Good luck with the move and may your cat not freak out on you while your driving (Driving with a cat has always cracked me up as the pace all over the car in total freak out mode.......then again I probably should have had it in a travel bag or something?)
nova_____:
Where are you? I am scared............scared of Moosebeetles!!! AAAAAAAAGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!
Love,Nova
Love,Nova
I had this bizarre and disturbing dream last night. I usually don't remember mydreams but this made an indellible impression on me. I was in the house in which I grew up only my room was not my room. It was but it wasn't, if you know what I mean. I got up in the morning and looked out the window. There was a dead...
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emily:
That was a really nice comment you put in my journal..Thank you..I think I will talk to him
oipthestampede:
FLCL is a 6 part OVA by Gainax. It's um.....very.....insane. One of my personal favorites.
I can pull quarters out of my ass. No really! I swallowed 7 quarter rolls so that I could do that trick special for New Years Eve. If you pull my finger my eyes start spinning and if they both are the same color when they stop I barf quarters too. 
Someone once told me that it might be bad for me, swallowing such large...
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neon:
hehe in that picture my pussy is about 6 weeks old. and if you like the taste of them quarters, swallow away is what i say. pulling them out of your ass must be pretty damn handy when you're in a supermarket and you're standing next to those 25cents machines that give you neat things like plastic rings and bouncy balls. oh yeah and gumballs.
neon:
nope. i didn't go to the party. i renovated my room with my boy instead. now i have a shiny new floor, lavender colored walls and all kinds of other things. the party did sound like fun but it wason't something that my boy and i could have done together. what'd you do?
I'm back!! If anyone is interested. I've been in Cleveland for the past couple of weeks scouting for my impending move. I'm in New England but you see I must leave my home of some 28 years. It has never felt home to me but perhaps that is because I was always made to feel like an unwelcome guest in my own house. My father...
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emily:
ahhh,that's ok...I just didnt know why you put that in my journal...Thanks for telling why..
dia:
luck!
Got a kitty on my lap
a kitty on my lap
and he don't want to move
he don't want to move
but I got things to do
Seems like such a tragedy
to disturb his feline content
as he slumbers so peacefully
in the place between my knees
and my... never you mind
forget I said anything please.
I have a kitty in my...
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a kitty on my lap
and he don't want to move
he don't want to move
but I got things to do
Seems like such a tragedy
to disturb his feline content
as he slumbers so peacefully
in the place between my knees
and my... never you mind
forget I said anything please.
I have a kitty in my...
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thorn2:
Thanks for the suggestion about Chuang Tzu. I went out and bought a copy the day after you reccomended it. Now I'm really messing with my mind reading it and The Art of War at the same time!
Your poem cracked me up.
Your poem cracked me up.
Depression. Suffering today. *Siiigh* Tried calling one of my dearest friends, sister of my soul and she promised to call me back but did not. *double siiiigh*. I hate that. I needed some moral support tonight but once again had to stick it out alone. Not that I can't survive but god it can be so much easier with a friend to bear witness and...
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fuzzybunny:
Thank you for your nice entry in my comments! Nice to meet you too, and welcome!
You're very handsome, Lion Boy!
And I do so know what it feels like to be so deeply depressed. Hang in there, and know there are many of us here who are experiencing a little of what you are experiencing.
Kisses,
Fuzzy
P.S. Have you tried Celexa at all? I am on it, and when I take it, it does seem to help with despair, and there is ZERO LOSS of libido, oh, I can assure you it is ZERO!
You're very handsome, Lion Boy!
And I do so know what it feels like to be so deeply depressed. Hang in there, and know there are many of us here who are experiencing a little of what you are experiencing.
Kisses,
Fuzzy
P.S. Have you tried Celexa at all? I am on it, and when I take it, it does seem to help with despair, and there is ZERO LOSS of libido, oh, I can assure you it is ZERO!
fuzzybunny:
P.S. When last seen, Jesus was barfing at what Cardinal Bernard Law has enabled..!
Angels, saints, gods, demons. Symbols for what lies within us, shattered pieces of self that we wall off from consciousness. Divinity or Devilishness, it all depends on how we choose to create ourselves. "A young monk said to his senior, 'I had a dream last night, an awful dream. Two dragons writhed together, locked in mortal combat; one was white and pure as driven snow...
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Something I wrote for a friend on a whim
...the rich scent of earth mingling with freshly fallen leaves, the snap of winter in the air warning those who are attentive of the season soon to come. Normally placid ponds where we swam and frollicked in our youth, when it was acceptable to frollick, whipped into a frenzied chop by the restless wind. Yet the...
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...the rich scent of earth mingling with freshly fallen leaves, the snap of winter in the air warning those who are attentive of the season soon to come. Normally placid ponds where we swam and frollicked in our youth, when it was acceptable to frollick, whipped into a frenzied chop by the restless wind. Yet the...
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eris:
nice... so why were you in japan?