I feel good. Most good. Pouring my heart out was the best thing that happened to me in recent memory. It is just a wow. I can breathe again, sort of sensation. I can make plans and daydream and be a dork again and not have to worry about this tiny little voice at the back of my head. What I feel is silly, irrational and fairy tale. It doesn't make any sense, and this is the first time I've felt like this. I'm such a kid sometimes, I just gotta smile. And however it all ends up, I gotta remember it was the right thing for me to do. It was the selfish, wonderful thing for me to do for myself. This is what it's all about.
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