linenandlace

at the end of her black and white day, she dreams in colour.




when i was a teenager and i would shut myself off from everyone my mom used to call it "putting myself to bed". i think that for years i had some sort of unconcious aversion to sleep. i was an insomniac for a long long time. fortunately back then, so was erin, i had someone to talk to into the morning.

now i feel this insomnia starting up again. when i am depressed i no longer"put myself to bed" but instead i never sleep. and so i get sick. i hurt all over and i dont know why. i lose feeling in my hands if i keep them still. i have had a headache for a week.

i miss my cousins and my out of state friends, and i miss being seen.

am i transparent these days? you cannot pretend you dont know how i feel about you.