Well If I couldn't say I've been to a coke party before I can now.
Mind you I don't do the shit and infact I hate it, ruined any chances I may have had to have a normal life. I made an exception last night to my rules and allowed my self to hang out with my friends long after the rolled up dollar bills and credit cards came out. I was drunk so it was just to easy to sit there and watch, I guess it's just something that I had to confront in my own way. This stuff is not going away and neither are the people who love todo it, though I will still never be able to maintain a real friendship with someone who does coke, but at least I don't freak out know when people do it around me.
My guitar is in the shop right now, so I missing that. In the months that I haven't been around I have been playing everyday (4+ hours a day). I think I have inproved some, though not as much as I would have liked. But at least my knowledge has increased at least 2x. My next instrument will be the drums, it's more of a toy kinda thing because I can't really picture my self going anywhere with it. But, I will want this fucking cool Roland drum synth that I played with at the music shop last weekend, it's about 800 bucks and I figure I can swing one in a couple months after I have moved, bought all my new furniture and have split my lil' brothers bus ticket with my Dad.
I'm recently single (again). I just can't stand being in these realationships that I have to hold to gether with no mutial support from my partner, so I have kinda made a commitment to my self that I will not date again until I find someone that is my age, like's me, is attractive, and doesn't act like a little girl.
Anyways I'm tired of bitching now so I'm going to leave it as that.
Mind you I don't do the shit and infact I hate it, ruined any chances I may have had to have a normal life. I made an exception last night to my rules and allowed my self to hang out with my friends long after the rolled up dollar bills and credit cards came out. I was drunk so it was just to easy to sit there and watch, I guess it's just something that I had to confront in my own way. This stuff is not going away and neither are the people who love todo it, though I will still never be able to maintain a real friendship with someone who does coke, but at least I don't freak out know when people do it around me.
My guitar is in the shop right now, so I missing that. In the months that I haven't been around I have been playing everyday (4+ hours a day). I think I have inproved some, though not as much as I would have liked. But at least my knowledge has increased at least 2x. My next instrument will be the drums, it's more of a toy kinda thing because I can't really picture my self going anywhere with it. But, I will want this fucking cool Roland drum synth that I played with at the music shop last weekend, it's about 800 bucks and I figure I can swing one in a couple months after I have moved, bought all my new furniture and have split my lil' brothers bus ticket with my Dad.
I'm recently single (again). I just can't stand being in these realationships that I have to hold to gether with no mutial support from my partner, so I have kinda made a commitment to my self that I will not date again until I find someone that is my age, like's me, is attractive, and doesn't act like a little girl.
Anyways I'm tired of bitching now so I'm going to leave it as that.