It seriously isnt easy to put what you are comfortable with out of your life.
I was comfortable at UArts.
I didnt hate it... but I did hate what I was doing there. Its an awsome school but the decision was made, it isnt for me. Not even for what im about to go into. I cant pay my life away into the school. I may go to grad school there, It feels like home.
My decision was based on the constant complaining and fear building up in myself over the future. How can I continue doing this? I dont like this. I dont want to do this when im done. Thats what I said every morning.
My reasons to stay are all bad ones. They are all revolving around ease in the present, about getting it over with and running as fast as I can through it.
Im sick of that shit.
Im taking the semester off. Its very scary. It isnt all fun and games like many assume. Im not a quitter either.
Im appling to Rutgers Camden. Its cheaper, its closer, classes are shorter and I have to learn some skills im not used to using. I feel like its the right choice.
Im going into graphic design.
Film is a hobby, stolen bolex is not dead. It has a chance but think on if it ever really was more than an idea. I need to really move on from highschool part 2.
So there you have it. Things have changed very rapidly, and this time off will give me the chance to really find myself. And work my ass off.
I was comfortable at UArts.
I didnt hate it... but I did hate what I was doing there. Its an awsome school but the decision was made, it isnt for me. Not even for what im about to go into. I cant pay my life away into the school. I may go to grad school there, It feels like home.
My decision was based on the constant complaining and fear building up in myself over the future. How can I continue doing this? I dont like this. I dont want to do this when im done. Thats what I said every morning.
My reasons to stay are all bad ones. They are all revolving around ease in the present, about getting it over with and running as fast as I can through it.
Im sick of that shit.
Im taking the semester off. Its very scary. It isnt all fun and games like many assume. Im not a quitter either.
Im appling to Rutgers Camden. Its cheaper, its closer, classes are shorter and I have to learn some skills im not used to using. I feel like its the right choice.
Im going into graphic design.
Film is a hobby, stolen bolex is not dead. It has a chance but think on if it ever really was more than an idea. I need to really move on from highschool part 2.
So there you have it. Things have changed very rapidly, and this time off will give me the chance to really find myself. And work my ass off.