Sunday Oct 30, 2005

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Ever get way hyped about something and then have someone way dick you over?




I have a test tomorrow, one on wednesday and a paper due next week. There are 7 weeks left, and then a huge happy break. Im thinking of leaving and moving to california, but I dont really know. I want out of here.


I feel dissatisfied with my life and where I am headed. I feel like I havent got what I really want and Im screwed into doing the same old. But im feeling like kicking the shit out of that, saying fuck it all im out of here. Im sick of people wanting me to live their way, im sick of having to be stuck in the place i have allways been. I have changed and I like that much.

Why is it that only here am I able to really release? Is it because the people who read this dont judge me on what I look like? Is it because I dont have much of a relationship with most of them...?

All I know is that tonight sucked, and my life is sucking consistantly. Im not happy. I cant think of what will make me happy. Not even food will do it this time folks. No tummy fix or fuzzy ferret, no coffee mug or martini glass, no bright color or even phrase could kick the blues I have.

I need to get shit in order. I need to break away.
Fuck yea Kelly Clarkson.



EDIT
ferrets are illegal in california. we cant move there. dreams crushed.



FUCK EVERYTHING.
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deadsweetheart:
but i still ahvent met ya dont move frown.....


cheer up dont make me sing the doom song .. doom do doooom doomie doomie doom

T
thepet:
I think our on th right track about why it is so easy to talk and post on SG. The people who come here consider themselves non conformists so they are apt to be more open. Also they don't realy know you persoanly and don't have to live with or around you so they are freer to accept what ever it is you do or say. For what it's worth only stupid or crazy people are ever completely happy about where they are and their life. Esp, when your young thou I have been feeling despondent recently my self. Nothing bad, or good, ever lasts forever. I guess I'm saying hang in thier you will find a place for you whether
it is in you or an actual place. Take care and I hope you had a great Halloween.

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