lily

My heart floats all over the country. can't control this gypsy blood. I can't be contained. Need to lose myself somewhere else, away from hypocrites that think nudity is obscene, fuck you and your morals.
No matter how many times i've been jailed and institutionalized my heart will never get used to bullet proof glass, bars, and barbed wire fences. I dreamed so much, broken and disillusioned, wrote so furiously, remembered what was inside my heart, Remembered who i had tried to forget. sometimes the truth is hard to swallow. I don't want to hurt you, but i will.
There was this one lady i was in jail with that made a tough soul die. She was in the papers and on the news all the time, accidentally killed three people drunk driving two years ago and now texas wants her on death row. They put her on so much thorazine that she would just drool and dream. Thats how they dessensitize you in jail, TV and Thorazine. I refused both at the end. I would pray for her, to my god, not theirs. Thanks for all of your letters and support.
Love, LIL
Love, Lily