lily

they say all great empires fall, and thats me falling. just a few more days and i'll be locked in a cell. i can't use pretty words for this cause its just not pretty. they've been rapidly detoxing off of methadone and i'm in so much physical pain. i can feel poisons leaking out of my bones and it hurts. we all have strange lives, strange pasts, Dee says when she was a junkie on the streets this woman would pay her to fuck her with a loaded gun, she said she had to take the bullets out on the downlow. one day this will just be a crazy past, dee says if i can jump in a boxcar and ride it cross country, live in a van, hitchhike around, sleep under bridges, kick heroin in jail than i can kick methadone in jail, I'm making a wishlist on amazon of all the books i'd like to read in jail. Books in jail are great cause you can escape to other universes , if you do want to send me a book wait until after sept 2nd. and make sure you send it overnight. I hope somewhere a little girl is smiling. its just not me right now man.
Love, LILY
on a lighter note i had the pleasure of meeting daniel robert ebstein in union square today and he's way cool.