I confess to you that I have no self-esteem, I don't like myself.
And it's horrible to have this feeling towards yourself, I should put myself first and instead I always put myself last.
I never feel beautiful, or if I do it's temporary.
Every time I can't wait to do new shootings, make new content, show myself... then I get blocked.
Perhaps what affected me the most was always being betrayed by my ex-partners, for every little thing there was always something wrong with me, especially on an aesthetic level.
At school I was made fun of for my aesthetic appearance, I looked as a boy, and they called me not very nice names like "rat" or something similar.
My family always compared my cousins' success to me.
Everything that led me to not like myself, to not see myself beautiful, for anything or anyone.
But there is a however!
I feel sure that one day all this will vanish, I will start to like myself again, to feel appreciated, I want to like myself, and I am sure that one day I will understand it.
Unfortunately, it's not that day yet, but this community is also supporting me a little in feeling accepted, and I thank you so much for all the beautiful comments you write to me π€β¨οΈ
You won't believe it, but some nice comments here are really good for the hearts of us girls. π«Άπ»
And I'm one of those. β€οΈπ©Ή
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lobsterphoenix:
You're always one of my favorites π₯° Thank you for being vulnerable. I'm sure you'll only find support here. Hope you're having a beautiful day π Well wishes for finding your self love β€οΈ
lobsterphoenix:
Also, remember that your worth is not determined by your appearance! You're so much more than just the way you look. π Your physical beauty is just the cherry on top π₯°