Went to the Burlesque show...It was fun. The girls looked great!! Drinks were only $2...and i got hit on a few times. LOL WOW one thing tho....i didnt think the girls were that thin. I like my girls just a little thicker then that. Girls that wont break if you snEEz on them...
But, as for other things...
My mood keeps changin like way bad. I have been gettin sadR and sadR everyday. Im not as happy as i once was. Im dwelling on how bad i look and how guys/ppl are treatin me. I know i shouldnt let dumb crap get to me, like ppl saying im fat...which i try to not let happen. But, its been building up. The other day i just broke down and started cryin. I cryed all night, so much so i cryed myself to sleep. I want someone to be happy with!! someone that wont lie, cheet or fucking use me like some toy to get back at other ppl.
ive been doing bad things again...
Blow has come back into my life...
As have other drugs...
AGAIN.
But, as for other things...
My mood keeps changin like way bad. I have been gettin sadR and sadR everyday. Im not as happy as i once was. Im dwelling on how bad i look and how guys/ppl are treatin me. I know i shouldnt let dumb crap get to me, like ppl saying im fat...which i try to not let happen. But, its been building up. The other day i just broke down and started cryin. I cryed all night, so much so i cryed myself to sleep. I want someone to be happy with!! someone that wont lie, cheet or fucking use me like some toy to get back at other ppl.
ive been doing bad things again...
Blow has come back into my life...
As have other drugs...
AGAIN.
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Anyways, girls who are too skinny are eww. The concentration camp victim look is definitely not on my 'What Gets Me Hot' list...which I should actually fill out some day.
As for life -- good luck. I just got over my heavy drug use not too long ago (E, pot, meth, alcohol) and I have to stay it's definitely been a good thing. I don't look dead anymore, yay. I know it's hard and it's easy to use them in order to 'just deal'.
Hope something changes in your life soon to make it all worth it. I'm sure it will.