lillith1

well turns out i did have things to do lastnight. LOL I found lots of things to do. It was hella fun!! Shrooms good!! Weed good!! put them both togeither...its fucking bad ass!! But, im stopping. i have to. im slowly going to a bad place...like in high school. *sighs* things have been good. Meeting some cool ppl and all. Im just getting confused...Felix just called me and he is now coming over. He's says he misses me. *sigh* there is always drama in my life. i really need to just get away from it all.

Felix: When he got here...he just started telling me how sorry he was for treating me bad. He gave me a big long hug...He really seemed sorry and sad, like he really did miss me. We came in my room and layed down. He then starts telling me how it was the drugs talking. Then he's quite for a while....he looks into my eyes and tells me he loves me. That he missed me so much. Then he (like in high school, which he laugh about before says it) asks me if i would be his Girl Friend. He has never intoD me to ppl as his GF or called me his GF...ever. I was kinda shocked my all this. I didnt know what to say. But, i sayed with how you pushed me away and i had to pay for everything. I dont know. im so confused right now. i dont know if he is telling me the truth or its just some game to get back at me. *sighs* I dont know if i still love him....after all that shit, i was trying to push him away and out of my mind. Trying to move on with my life and look for someone else. Like ive told ppl lots of times...for some reason there is always drama in my life and i dont always bring it on. im so confused...i was starting to like someone else. I dont know what to do now..........help.



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