Man oh man... Felix is like really driving me up the wall. The boy loves me and is afrade to say it. ::grins:: ...i like him alot too. heh ::grins:: So, umm yeah...this is what has been going on with him and i.......
On his Birthday he tells me that he will never love me. He's afrade to love someone....ect. That was on a thursday morning. So, after he tells me all that...i go and get coked up and take other things aswell. Saturday i still havent heard from him. Me feeling bad about myself, i do more drugs and end up messing around with a friend. After that, me feeling even worse...i do more drugs. I dont hear from felix until late monday night. We hang out the next day like nuthing happend on thursday. A week and a half later he finds out i messed around with my friend. He gets hella pissed off and tells me to loose his number. OK, now i could see him getting mad and shit if we were like really going out...but we werent. and still arent. *sighs* From the begin he was like "i dont want a ser. rela." and i was like, "thats fine with me". So, now we are talking again. I still dont know, what is really going on. Sep that i REALLY like him...and i really hope things work out. I hope he goes to school, and i hope he changes his mine and we are like BF/GF. But, if it doesnt and we are just friends....i could live with it. It would just take me a little while. I am so willing to help him in anyway i can. I care about him that much... *sigh*
This is kinda dumb but, i think it would be hella cool if this happend... Like he's going to school in GV or whatever....and like it turns out that the classes i want to take, i cant only take them like somewhere over there. LOL and i have to move out, and we like get a place togeither. LOL ::grins:: im such a dork. ::smiles:: he's so smart, funny, i love being around him. he makes me laugh, just so sweet...It doesnt matter what we are doing, if im with him, im having a good time. ::smiles:: Even if we dont take the big step, i hope his life goes great. and maybe i can be there in some way....
On his Birthday he tells me that he will never love me. He's afrade to love someone....ect. That was on a thursday morning. So, after he tells me all that...i go and get coked up and take other things aswell. Saturday i still havent heard from him. Me feeling bad about myself, i do more drugs and end up messing around with a friend. After that, me feeling even worse...i do more drugs. I dont hear from felix until late monday night. We hang out the next day like nuthing happend on thursday. A week and a half later he finds out i messed around with my friend. He gets hella pissed off and tells me to loose his number. OK, now i could see him getting mad and shit if we were like really going out...but we werent. and still arent. *sighs* From the begin he was like "i dont want a ser. rela." and i was like, "thats fine with me". So, now we are talking again. I still dont know, what is really going on. Sep that i REALLY like him...and i really hope things work out. I hope he goes to school, and i hope he changes his mine and we are like BF/GF. But, if it doesnt and we are just friends....i could live with it. It would just take me a little while. I am so willing to help him in anyway i can. I care about him that much... *sigh*
This is kinda dumb but, i think it would be hella cool if this happend... Like he's going to school in GV or whatever....and like it turns out that the classes i want to take, i cant only take them like somewhere over there. LOL and i have to move out, and we like get a place togeither. LOL ::grins:: im such a dork. ::smiles:: he's so smart, funny, i love being around him. he makes me laugh, just so sweet...It doesnt matter what we are doing, if im with him, im having a good time. ::smiles:: Even if we dont take the big step, i hope his life goes great. and maybe i can be there in some way....
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relationships can be a huge pain in the butt. I hope yours works its self out for the best.
g'luck kiddo!