lillie_

I thought I would share some of my poems with you. These are old ones. I dont share my poetry with people usually. I am afraid to.

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I sit silently next to you spitting and hissing like a cat.
My voice is full of venom,
And my veins are full of rum.
I want to swing my furry at you,
Draw out your cowardice.
Hatred burns through my soul.
I am confused
I am alone.
All I ask for is comfort.
You are a pathetic excuse for a man.
Not only do you lack courage,
You lack heart.
You have built such walls around you that not even my tears get through.
I reach out one last time,
Praying for a lit window in your tower.
I am only greeted by darkness.
I dry my tears and walk away.
I look back at you,
You are but a shadow in my memory.

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Am I beautiful?
No you say.
For so long I was the fool for caring.
Now I realise you were the fool.
To busy looking over my shoulder for something better.
You never looked at me.
Did you see the tears?
Did you see the smiles?
Did you see anything except for what you thought was something better in the distance?
Time will pass.
I will be loved and you will still be looking over my shoulder.
All that is left when love leaves my heart is pity.

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Don't look at me you say,
And push further back into the shadows.
Why am I your muse?
You scream into the night.
I smile at you waiting for the light of realisation to flicker to life.
You sigh to no one in particular.
You are defeated.
The harder you fight back,
The more fun the game becomes.
I look at the stars but tonight they are not my ally,
They tremble behind the storm clouds.
I reach out for you...
You read my mind or maybe you just know my pattern.
You step out of the way.
The leopard still lives in you.
As I grasp at the cold night air you smile.
I hold open my arms.
I know this is the only way to play the game,
Let you believe you are rolling the dice.
You draw me in,
Warmth and spice.
I smile.
I have won.

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Kisses

Lillie