Sunday May 07, 2006

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I'm doing better today. Thank you so much for all the support, you guys so rock! I'm working on some poetry to post soon. I hope all is well with everyone! Talk to you guys soon! kiss blush kiss
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starrydynamo:
Glad to hear you're feeling better smile Can't wait to read new poetry!!
nc_guy:
I'm glad to hear that. I wasn't much help to you on Friday. Looking forward to the new words. wink

Friday May 05, 2006

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I'm so bored and lonely on this Friday evening. There isn't much to do. I have no poetry. I'm just down I suppose. I hope this night gets better somehow, or atleast this weekend. I just hate not having someone to hang out with. My mind runs away with horrible thoughts, and then the screams set in. I need something to distract me from myself....
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stompbox:
I know just what you mean. I feel like that a lot actually. I read, watch a lot of movies, do stuff around the house. If I get too stir crazy I go to a bookstore or coffee shop or maybe a tattoo studio. You can probably come up with better stuff than that, I'm pretty dull, but these are good distractions. Problem is, none of it really makes you feel less alone.
nc_guy:
I crashed way too early last night. Otherwise, I would have gladly talked more. I hope your Saturday is going well.

Saturday Apr 29, 2006

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Three in the morning:


divide the hatred of the night

as shades of love swallow the pain

numbness aching

serenity throbbing

tingling sunsets are like a drug

an acidized variation of the truth

vindictive sarcasm stretches

across the blanket of forgetfulness

lying on my face while moonlight graces me

approach the abyss of drunken behavior

sickness swells in my veins

as envy eats my heart...
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nc_guy:
Hey! How are you?
thawtz:
Another beautiful poem. That's my girl. You need a huge ass hug. And some wetnaps!
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Saturday Apr 29, 2006

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Well, she left today. Surprisingly, it wasn't bad at all! For the first time ever, she was nice to me and we had a good time. Odd.

Anyway, I'm working on some new poetry, and I'll be posting it soon. I hope everyone is doing well! kiss
stompbox:
That's great! Maybe she's finally growing up. wink
I'm doing okay. Glad to hear you are too. smile
nc_guy:
I read your last journal entry to see who "she" was, and it sounds like you had your hands full. Family can be both a blessing and a curse sometimes. I can totally sympathize...especially the divorced parents part.

Sunday Apr 23, 2006

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I don't have any new poetry, and I don't have much going on in my life. I'm very bored and stuck in a rut! I need some excitment, but what? I'm such a creature of habit, that it's disgusting!

Some bad news though, my mom is coming in to town tomorrow! mad She wants try to be my friend now! What the fuck ever! She'll be...
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thawtz:
Holy crap! Our moms must hang out and share notes! My mother and I have the same exact relationship as ya'll. Except mine only comes halfway across the U.S. to visit (from Hawaii). I'm expected to do the other half of the trip, to Vegas to meet her. I'm not exactly rollin' in the dough like she is and she knows it. Probably why we haven't been face to face in almost 7 years.

*que the violin music please*
hellbent13:
I had to move 900 miles to get away from mine. She used to send me on so many guilt trips she should have got frequent flier miles.
Maybe I should have moved farther away, now that I think about it...Hmmmm. skull

Friday Apr 21, 2006

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Treat:

A suffering kiss swallows me whole
I beg for my loneliness
and like a fiery pit I roar
screams
sadness
silent
shame

crawling through the day
to bear the climax of the night

sober, for what purpose?
does it really even matter?

sleep my only freedom
yet I a captive of the son, Oh I mean sun

confussion swirls around my grace
and painted...
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endquire:
I always love your poetry. Although the feelings and subject make me sad.
starrydynamo:
Mold is the ultimate kuck bomb puke
This is a beautiful piece of writing, absolutely gorgeous.

Tuesday Apr 18, 2006

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I probably won't be on here very much for a bit, I have to go to the hospital in the morning. I'll talk to you guys soon! wink
thegooddoctor:
Hope everything is ok!
thawtz:
Thanks for the b-day wishes. I'm wishing everything is hunkie-freakin'-dory over on your end.

Tuesday Apr 18, 2006

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i need a miracle
stompbox:
That's a tough thing to need. Miracles don't come easy. I don't know what I'd do with one, if I had it, so if I find one I'll give it to you.
thawtz:
Didn't mean to make you shed a tear or two! You Ok today?

Thursday Apr 13, 2006

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The Arena Hotel:

Intoxicated fools embrace their god

on a bed of slop and slobber

dizzily fading into a dream

lazily falling off the illusion of perfection

food for thought....

mixer

trickster

liquor lover

fester in the oblivion of his mind

and fade into the nothingness of it

as drops of sorrow crystalize

visualize the naked boy

my panties lie

hears my cries

fantasize about...
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endquire:
I always appreciate and enjoy your poetry. You are very beautiful
hellbent13:
Lovely. smile

Monday Apr 10, 2006

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Vanished:

The twilight weighs down my essence

as I scream the name of passion

my panties leak at the thought of you

while silent whispers capture the memory

drank down was his affection

ignored were my intentions

my heart beats wildly

as this poisonous sin soaks me in shame

my tongue dries..................leaving me thristy for more

his filth imitates adoration....

...then he disappears.
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thawtz:
Niiiiice! You lil' horn-dog, you.

wink
endquire:
That is sadly beautiful
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