Well i tried to be positive and pro-active this week, and decided it was ime to go speak to my doctor about my weight.
I will give you a bit of back history first (ignore this if you cant be arsed to read.
Well when i got married 5 years ago i was a size 14 still big but i felt good, my weight had been creeping on for a few years since college, but i felt happy.
There you go a fairly small me, lol
We started trying for a baby fairly soon after we were married and 3 years later and 2 stone heavier we went through fertility tests, we both got the all vlear and were diognosed with unidentified fertility problems, i was told at the time that i needed to loose 3 stone and we would be able to have 2 attempts at IVF.
Well 2 years on from there and over a stone heavier, with not one diet that has worked past a couple of lost lbs, im more miserable than ever, lol
So i went to the doctor and spoke about it, we went through my diet and what i eat generaly, which is a preety well balanced diet, i have the odd bad day but im usually pretty good, went through my levels of exsercise, he suggested running, which i would love too do , but im too heavy for my knees to take the pressure at the moment, so he has agreed to let me have slimming pills, (orlistat) im off to have my blood tests tomorrow to check my liver function then next week i should be able to get my prescription.
Im excited to try this, my diet is already pretty low fat but i can reduce more, and im hoping to loose enough to be able to have the IVF!!!!
Another pic, this is me when i first started dating marc, march 2002.
And me now!
Well a little while ago, but the only one that shows how big i am at the moment!
So yesterday i was really excited about the prospect of possible getting pregnant one day!!!
The today my husbands Ex called me (Josh's Mum) to tell me that she is pregnant!
Now i know its selfish of me to let it hurt me, but im so worried about josh, and it annoys me that she has hardly any interest in the 3 she has already and now 4 is on the way, and im so ready to have a child you wouldnt believe, and i cant!!!
I just find life so frustrating sometimes!!!
and now i fell totally selfish!!!!
i hope your weeks are going better than im feeling and your all happy!!
Love you all
I will give you a bit of back history first (ignore this if you cant be arsed to read.
Well when i got married 5 years ago i was a size 14 still big but i felt good, my weight had been creeping on for a few years since college, but i felt happy.
There you go a fairly small me, lol
We started trying for a baby fairly soon after we were married and 3 years later and 2 stone heavier we went through fertility tests, we both got the all vlear and were diognosed with unidentified fertility problems, i was told at the time that i needed to loose 3 stone and we would be able to have 2 attempts at IVF.
Well 2 years on from there and over a stone heavier, with not one diet that has worked past a couple of lost lbs, im more miserable than ever, lol
So i went to the doctor and spoke about it, we went through my diet and what i eat generaly, which is a preety well balanced diet, i have the odd bad day but im usually pretty good, went through my levels of exsercise, he suggested running, which i would love too do , but im too heavy for my knees to take the pressure at the moment, so he has agreed to let me have slimming pills, (orlistat) im off to have my blood tests tomorrow to check my liver function then next week i should be able to get my prescription.
Im excited to try this, my diet is already pretty low fat but i can reduce more, and im hoping to loose enough to be able to have the IVF!!!!
Another pic, this is me when i first started dating marc, march 2002.
And me now!
Well a little while ago, but the only one that shows how big i am at the moment!
So yesterday i was really excited about the prospect of possible getting pregnant one day!!!
The today my husbands Ex called me (Josh's Mum) to tell me that she is pregnant!
Now i know its selfish of me to let it hurt me, but im so worried about josh, and it annoys me that she has hardly any interest in the 3 she has already and now 4 is on the way, and im so ready to have a child you wouldnt believe, and i cant!!!
I just find life so frustrating sometimes!!!
and now i fell totally selfish!!!!
i hope your weeks are going better than im feeling and your all happy!!
Love you all
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aesirr:
I bet you are lol. They are pretty though lol.
killa_:
than you for the comment - seeing all those nice words from everyne has really helped me stay positive.