Tuesday early afternoon.
I had a really good day yesterday and felt completely better. Today I was woken up this morning with a killer headache. I can't ever remember being woken up by a headache before but it's not nice. Thankfully I have a packet of paracetamol in my bedside cabinet so I took 2 and went back to sleep.
God, how I wish I didn't sleep so much. Mornings are a total nightmare for me still; I just can't seem to drag my sorry arse out of bed and that's something I've always been able to do!!
So yeah, headache and a bit of a sore throat today. Not good but never mind, I'm not dying or unwell enough to want to sleep all the time. My tummy is my main problem now; I don't know whether it's IBS again or what but my tummy hurts big time and I'm getting pretty constipated. Again, I don't know if this is to do with the medication or not but I'm not too worried at the moment as my appetite has completely gone, woohoo! I'm making sure I'm drinking loads but also hoping that I will lose a little bit of my fatness; this will make me incredibly happy!!
I'm in my office today; I keep waiting for the building manager to come and see me as the last 2 direct debits have been cancelled through lack of funds!
I can't be bothered to be too concerned. I reckon he probably hasn't even realised yet anyway, stupid twat. He's a right smarmy fucker, I don't like him at all 
Anyway, what else? Erm, been working really hard with my new lodger and I really feel positive about both her and how she's doing generally, her full cooperation and understanding for what we want her to achieve in the coming months, and the fact that she's agreed to spend every Monday evening with me, where we cook together and generally spend time catching up
Last night we had the most amazing Quorn roast dinner and sat together and had a right old chinwag about what's going on in her life and it's all stuff that I feel I can help her with rather than the last lodger who was waaaaaaaaaay too fucked up for my expertise and life experience! 
So yeah, I'm feeling really positive about her and in a lot of ways our experiences at her age kinda mirror each other so I feel my shitty experiences will help her which is great!
Additionally, I was ready my Miscarriage Association newsletter over the Christmas period and they were asking for volunteers to undergo a distance learning course and to attend an introductory day in London in March. I emailed them about this and they've now sent me an information pack on it all. I can't tell you how excited I am about this opportunity! I have realised lately that in order to get over, move on etc. from various negative experiences in my life, it really does help me to kinda turn them into positive things by helping others who have experienced the same sort of thing. I guess it kinda then feels like I didn't suffer for nothing. I know that all sounds so dramatic but what the fuck; I'm contributing to society and others while helping myself at the same time. It's a win!
What else? Oh yeah, my poor Nanny has been poorly again; this time with her blood level. The bastard doctors have fucked her around again and she's got so anaemic again that she had to go in yesterday (she should have gone in on Saturday but the fucking doctor on-call said "what do you expect me to do about it" - CUNT - my mum is going to make a formal complaint about him anyway, fucking bastard. Anyway, the only way to get her seen asap for a blood transfusion was for her to spend all bloody day in A&E yesterday, on a bed in the fucking corridor so they could take blood from her to test (blood tests in fucking corridors = massive fail!
) and ECG's etc. The poor love didn't get home til teatime last night and still no blood. Still, they made her an appointment for first thing this morning so at this moment she's being topped up. They've also agreed that she now needs to be seen and checked by her consultant every 3 weeks rather than every 4 which makes me very happy and reassured. Did I tell you how much I love my Nanny?!
So yeah, yet again, I have written way much more than I intended but I've put it all out there which is a good thing right? It's like I open the blog page and my fingers do all the work without me really thinking too much about it. I can type incredibly fast without looking at the keys and therefore my thoughts seem to go straight from my brain to the tips of my fingers and I go into auto. It's pretty cool really as I don't have to consciously think too much about what I wanna say; it all just comes naturally
Anyway, I'm talking total shit now so it's time for me to leave. My baby bro is home next Thursday from Iraq for his 2 week R&R before he goes back until July; I'm really looking forward to seeing him. Thank God for MSN and facebook; I've spoken to him more online while he's been out there than I did when he was home! Quite bizarre. To all those soldiers all over the world; I don't agree with any of you being there but I still wish you all the best and hope you can hurry home soon safe and sound to your families and friends
TTFN my friends, be good and if you can't be good, be bloody careful! Love you all xx
I had a really good day yesterday and felt completely better. Today I was woken up this morning with a killer headache. I can't ever remember being woken up by a headache before but it's not nice. Thankfully I have a packet of paracetamol in my bedside cabinet so I took 2 and went back to sleep.
God, how I wish I didn't sleep so much. Mornings are a total nightmare for me still; I just can't seem to drag my sorry arse out of bed and that's something I've always been able to do!!
So yeah, headache and a bit of a sore throat today. Not good but never mind, I'm not dying or unwell enough to want to sleep all the time. My tummy is my main problem now; I don't know whether it's IBS again or what but my tummy hurts big time and I'm getting pretty constipated. Again, I don't know if this is to do with the medication or not but I'm not too worried at the moment as my appetite has completely gone, woohoo! I'm making sure I'm drinking loads but also hoping that I will lose a little bit of my fatness; this will make me incredibly happy!!
I'm in my office today; I keep waiting for the building manager to come and see me as the last 2 direct debits have been cancelled through lack of funds!
I can't be bothered to be too concerned. I reckon he probably hasn't even realised yet anyway, stupid twat. He's a right smarmy fucker, I don't like him at all
Anyway, what else? Erm, been working really hard with my new lodger and I really feel positive about both her and how she's doing generally, her full cooperation and understanding for what we want her to achieve in the coming months, and the fact that she's agreed to spend every Monday evening with me, where we cook together and generally spend time catching up
Last night we had the most amazing Quorn roast dinner and sat together and had a right old chinwag about what's going on in her life and it's all stuff that I feel I can help her with rather than the last lodger who was waaaaaaaaaay too fucked up for my expertise and life experience! So yeah, I'm feeling really positive about her and in a lot of ways our experiences at her age kinda mirror each other so I feel my shitty experiences will help her which is great!
Additionally, I was ready my Miscarriage Association newsletter over the Christmas period and they were asking for volunteers to undergo a distance learning course and to attend an introductory day in London in March. I emailed them about this and they've now sent me an information pack on it all. I can't tell you how excited I am about this opportunity!
I have realised lately that in order to get over, move on etc. from various negative experiences in my life, it really does help me to kinda turn them into positive things by helping others who have experienced the same sort of thing. I guess it kinda then feels like I didn't suffer for nothing. I know that all sounds so dramatic but what the fuck; I'm contributing to society and others while helping myself at the same time. It's a win!
What else? Oh yeah, my poor Nanny has been poorly again; this time with her blood level. The bastard doctors have fucked her around again and she's got so anaemic again that she had to go in yesterday (she should have gone in on Saturday but the fucking doctor on-call said "what do you expect me to do about it" - CUNT - my mum is going to make a formal complaint about him anyway, fucking bastard. Anyway, the only way to get her seen asap for a blood transfusion was for her to spend all bloody day in A&E yesterday, on a bed in the fucking corridor so they could take blood from her to test (blood tests in fucking corridors = massive fail!
) and ECG's etc. The poor love didn't get home til teatime last night and still no blood. Still, they made her an appointment for first thing this morning so at this moment she's being topped up. They've also agreed that she now needs to be seen and checked by her consultant every 3 weeks rather than every 4 which makes me very happy and reassured. Did I tell you how much I love my Nanny?!
So yeah, yet again, I have written way much more than I intended but I've put it all out there which is a good thing right? It's like I open the blog page and my fingers do all the work without me really thinking too much about it. I can type incredibly fast without looking at the keys and therefore my thoughts seem to go straight from my brain to the tips of my fingers and I go into auto. It's pretty cool really as I don't have to consciously think too much about what I wanna say; it all just comes naturally
Anyway, I'm talking total shit now so it's time for me to leave. My baby bro is home next Thursday from Iraq for his 2 week R&R before he goes back until July; I'm really looking forward to seeing him. Thank God for MSN and facebook; I've spoken to him more online while he's been out there than I did when he was home! Quite bizarre. To all those soldiers all over the world; I don't agree with any of you being there but I still wish you all the best and hope you can hurry home soon safe and sound to your families and friends
TTFN my friends, be good and if you can't be good, be bloody careful! Love you all xx
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