It's been an absolutely rotten few days. I just can't believe how many things I've had to endure in 2008 and I sincerely bloody well hope this will be the last one.
Sarah called me on Friday night when I was in the taxi office to tell me that one of our best friends from school had died suddenly at her mothers house on the 22nd October 2008.
I'm still in total shock and don't know how to deal with it at all.
I rang Donna's mum yesterday to ask if it would be ok to attend the funeral on Wednesday and she was so pleased to hear from me! It's been a very long time - actually it's been 19 years since I left the neighbourhood, I was just 15.
As yet I don't know how or why Donna died, she only turned 34 in July. She was always a troubled soul, I know that but still, it's hard to believe. Her mum didn't really say much on the phone but said she'd always liked her drink. I also know Donna did drugs years ago so I'm now left to wonder whether she had an accidental overdose, or whether it was something completely innocent or whether it may have been suicide even. I don't know and at the end of the day, does it really matter? I'm just very sad that this world is now without her.
One thing that Viv did ask me was would I like to see Donna before her funeral on Wednesday. Whoa! I've never even thought of that before. I know when my Grandad passed in 1991 the last I saw of him was a week or so before he went into hospital; I never saw him again. I was 17 then and made a decision that I didn't want to see anyone after they'd died unless it was my immediate family. I don't even know why I made such a decision at such a young age. Anyway, after Viv asked me yesterday, my instinct was to say yes immediately. Again, I have no idea why but it definitely feels like the right thing to do. I spoke to Sarah about it and she said the same so we're going to go and visit Viv tomorrow at 12pm and then make our way to the funeral directors to say our final goodbye to Donna. May she rest in peace
Here's a picture of me and Donna aged 15 at Chessington World of Adventures in the summer of 1989. I'm the one with the skinhead obviously!!
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Sarah called me on Friday night when I was in the taxi office to tell me that one of our best friends from school had died suddenly at her mothers house on the 22nd October 2008.
I'm still in total shock and don't know how to deal with it at all.
I rang Donna's mum yesterday to ask if it would be ok to attend the funeral on Wednesday and she was so pleased to hear from me! It's been a very long time - actually it's been 19 years since I left the neighbourhood, I was just 15.
As yet I don't know how or why Donna died, she only turned 34 in July. She was always a troubled soul, I know that but still, it's hard to believe. Her mum didn't really say much on the phone but said she'd always liked her drink. I also know Donna did drugs years ago so I'm now left to wonder whether she had an accidental overdose, or whether it was something completely innocent or whether it may have been suicide even. I don't know and at the end of the day, does it really matter? I'm just very sad that this world is now without her.
One thing that Viv did ask me was would I like to see Donna before her funeral on Wednesday. Whoa! I've never even thought of that before. I know when my Grandad passed in 1991 the last I saw of him was a week or so before he went into hospital; I never saw him again. I was 17 then and made a decision that I didn't want to see anyone after they'd died unless it was my immediate family. I don't even know why I made such a decision at such a young age. Anyway, after Viv asked me yesterday, my instinct was to say yes immediately. Again, I have no idea why but it definitely feels like the right thing to do. I spoke to Sarah about it and she said the same so we're going to go and visit Viv tomorrow at 12pm and then make our way to the funeral directors to say our final goodbye to Donna. May she rest in peace
Here's a picture of me and Donna aged 15 at Chessington World of Adventures in the summer of 1989. I'm the one with the skinhead obviously!!
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(and that was so inadequate of me. Sorry, I'm shit with words)